The Writing On the Wall

[HollywoodVampirella]

Here we go... enjoy everyone.. this is the collaberated effort with me and val.. steming from our individual stories .. and now joing up for a bit.. so if youre wondering about this story.. read our other stories to catch up..

[Tnangel5173]

The elevator doors open at the lobby. Vince, Nikki and Stephanie walk out into the marble hallway. None of them are talking but Stephanie
wipes a tear from her eyes. Finally after all these years she heard the the words from Vince she'd wanted to hear. "i'm sorry I hurt you"
His words echoed in her mind until Nikki turned to her and smiled. He hugged her tight and knew she was relieved Vince would finally leave her alone and let her be happy with whomever she chose. Checking herself in the mirror in the hallway to make sure her makeup and hair looked good she walked along with Nikki hand and hand. Vince had walked ahead of them heading straight for the bar. He needed a beer .
Stephanie saw them first. There was no mistaken Tommy and his smile she loved so much about him. Breaking free from Nikki she ran to him and hugged him tight around his neck nearly knocking Tommy down. "it's so good to see you " she said. "You are a site for sore eyes" Stephanie said smiling.
Nikki walked up to the three of them and gave Ceejae a slight hug as well. Nikki saw the look on Stephanie's face when he hugged her and she gave him a questioning look. "What's up bro" Nikki said to Tommy. Before Tommy could answer the hostess came over to the three of them and told Nikki the private room he'd requested was ready . Nikki nodded and asked her to lead the way. Stephanie walked with Nikki hand in hand almost protectively this time in front of Ceejae and Tommy. Once inside the room they all sat down and the tension was starting to set in. Something about the way Nikki had hugged Ceejae. Nikki finally made the initial introductions for Stephanie and Ceejae. "nice to meet you Ceejae" , Stephanie said extending her hand to her. "So you're the one I've heard Tommy talk so much about in the past couple of years, It's good to finally meet you" Stephanie said sincerly.
Nikki looked at Tommy with a bewildered look..almost as if oh boy what have we gotten into now.....

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CeeJae smiled as she awkwardly hugged Nikki back as he gave her a slight squeeze. She stepped back and resumed her place next to Tommy as Stephanie stood there with a curious look on her face. Tommy took her hand as they followed the hostess whom CeeJae noticed Tommy kind of checking her out.. She playfully elbowed him and continued following Nikki and his girlfriend one step ahead of Tommy. As they sat down Tommy kissed CeeJae’s cheek, “That was not nice.” He smiled. “Well you were not being very nice either.” She laughed. Nikki shook his head and made introductions.
“Steph this is CeeJae, CeeJae Steph.”
Stephanie reached out to shake CeeJae’s hand, “So you're the one I've heard Tommy talk so much about in the past couple of years, It's good to finally meet you”.
“Like wise, I have heard much of you as well.” CeeJae smiled as she took Stephanie’s hand.
“Where did Vince go? He walked right past us I don’t even think he knew we were there.” CeeJae asked Nikki and notice that look on his face. It was a look of uneasiness and a little frustration.
“I don’t know; guess he had to o something quick. I am sure he will be by to say hello to you.” CeeJae notice the look on both Nikki and Steph’s faces. She wanted to say something but Tommy placed his hand on her leg. She knew that maybe this time she needed to keep quiet.
“Well I need a drink.” CeeJae waved over to the waitress to come to the table.
“That is a good idea” Nikki smiled.
They made their orders and thought appetizers was a good idea too.
As CeeJae took a drink she heard Vince, “Hey beautiful!” CeeJae stood up and hugged him.
“Hey you! How are you?”
“I am good, but busy. Sorry I didn’t come sooner but I had to make a call and I am a little distracted.”
“its ok Vince, you’re always distracted.” She joked.
“Hey that’s not always true.” He smiled.
“Whatever.” CeeJae rolled her eyes and smiled, “So are you going to sit with us?” She pulled out a chair.
“Aww sorry Ceege, I have to meet up with the crew and get things set for our show. I also have to get some sleep. I am beat.” He glanced over to Stephanie and Nikki. CeeJae noticed.
With a heavy sigh she nodded, “Oh ok.. But keep in touch.” She hugged him and watched him walk off.
She took her seat and lit a cigarette and a huge drink of her Southern Comfort and Ginger ale. “So Tommy tells me you guys are seriously thinking on making this the last tour together?”
“Uh, yeah. I figure its time we take a break. We have been doing this almost non stop for a long time now and I know I need a break for a while. We are starting to wear down. You know how it goes Ceege.”
She laughed, “Yeah I do an when you guys get worn out you end up fighting with each other. And this time I am not there to break it up.”
“You mean they actually have gotten into fist fights?” Steph asked.
CeeJae looked over at her, “Hell yeah they have; on more then one occasion.”
“Well it was all stupid shit that we got over though.” Tommy chimed in.
Nikki took a drink of his soda , as he stated he was trying to not drink so much anymore, “Yeah remember that time you and Vince got into it at my house and CeeJae fucking sprayed you guys with the hose and threw whatever she had handy at you both and screaming wildly and chased you to your cars?” Nikki laughed so hard as Steph watched him.
“What happened? Why were you guys fighting?” Steph asked Tommy. He sat uneasily for a moment, realizing Nikki slipped.
“Oh god, you had to bring that up Nikki.” CeeJae laughed and began to say something else when Tommy chimed in.
“Well I don’t remember now what the fight was about but I remember Ceege screaming at us and hosing us down and that water was fucking ice cold and I remember she threw a bottle at my car and another at Vince as he sped off on his bike.” Tommy chuckled. CeeJae knew full well Tommy remembered that fight and how it really went down. She was staying with Nikki at that time, it was the night her and Nikki … well she remembered every detail of that day and night and the next morning. She looked over a Nikki and he was taking a drink of his soda and looked right at her as Steph listened to Tommy explain half assed what happened leaving out some details as to not let Steph know all of the truth.
CeeJae was growing tired of the tiptoeing around, especially after the 3 drink and the appetizers were gone. She didnt know why they acted this way.. If things were so great with Steph then why not tell her everything. So she lit up another cigarette and exhaled the smoke and looked over at Steph who was listening to the guys laugh and talk.
Nikki glances over at CeeJae and noticed the look on her face and lightly kicked Tommy under the table.
“Babe, are you ok?” Tommy kissed her cheek.
“Yeah I am fine. Why?”
“Just wondering, you’re just quiet and looked like you were somewhere else.” He smiled.
“Is everything ok CeeJae? Is there something wrong?” Stephanie asked.
CeeJae smirked and sat back as she flicked her ashes in the ashtray. Nikki and Tommy suddenly felt real uneasy. “Ceege can you come with me to get the drinks, our waitress is a little slow.” Nikki asked. “Babe I can help you.” Steph replied quickly.
“Hey what am I chopped liver here? You don’t want to talk to me?” Tommy joked with Stephanie.
“oh no not at all T-bone I just thought I would be polite.”
“Fuck it, let’s get the damn drinks I am getting thirsty” CeeJae smiled and got up from the table and followed Nikki to the bar.
“Ceege, what the fuck are you doing?” Nikki’s face got serious.
“Oh boy here we go..” she rolled her eyes, “I am not doing a damn thing Nikki. I thought it was really great seeing you guys, what you failed to tell her was about me wasn’t it? You never told her? “
“No I didn’t. I didn’t think it was necessary, but now I don’t know.”
“I think the two of you need to fucking clear the air and tell the truth about every damn thing.” She poked him in the chest.
Nikki took a deep breath, he hated that shit more then anything and she knew it.
“Look don’t do this now Ceege. Not now…” he grabbed two drinks and walked back to the table as CeeJae grabbed hers and Tommy’s drinks and headed back to the table thinking about what to do or say next. She wasn’t going to be able to deal with the pussy footing around much longer…
She sat down and took a drink and with a heavy sigh she lit up another cigarette exhaled the smoke, “So what has the guys told you about me Stephanie?” and with that they guys sat up and looked at each other an realized that maybe this was not a good idea.

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Taken by surprise at Ceejae's question, Stephanie glances over at Nikki and Tommy before answering.
The look on their faces tells her they are both hiding something from her . "well Ceejae they have told me about the water fight
at Nikki's house before. As to what caused it they never told me but laughed about it everytime it was mentioned. "vince even laughs about it when he thinks about it." Stephanie replied. "I also know about why you were staying with Nikki at that time and how long you were there." Stephanie looks over at Tommy and see's the surprised look on his face. As Stephanie continues to tell Ceejae all she knows about her she can sense something is wrong with this picture. Ceejae is giving Nikki and Tommy dirty looks and she's about to interupt her. "Ceejae I know more than you think I do about you. I know about you and Vince all those years ago also. " Stephanie tells her. Nikki can't believe what he is hearing from Stephanie and wonders now what it is she knows about Ceejae that him and the guys haven't told her. "Ceejae Tommy never stopped loving you after you left. He waited for you to come back to L.A. and when you didn't after a few months the mere mention of your name would make him leave the room for awhile. Eventually he gave up hope of ever seeing or talking to you again and tried to move on with his life but they never worked out. Didn't last very long with anyone. " Stephanie told her. Tommy looked over at Stephanie and smiled. He knew Stephanie was trying to get out of a tough question and spot that Ceejae had put her in.
Stephanie took a drink of her coke and decided she needed something stronger and asked Nikki to go with her to the bar.
"i will go with you Steph" Tommy told her before Nikki could stand up. As they walked to the bar Nikki watched wondering what that conversation was gonna be about.
"so girl what is it you know about Ceejae you didn't say back there?' Tommy asked her. "Look I know there was more to Nikki and Ceejae than just friends and I don't know why or how she could do that to you Tommy" Stephanie told him. "did Nikki tell you this?" Tommy asked. "no he didn't tell me but I figured it out while sitting at the table with you three and the way Ceejae is acting and drinking tonight just confirms the suspicions I've had all these years I've been with Nikki." Stephanie tells him. "oh boy" Tommy say's.
"look i'm not the one you need to be talking to about this right now Nikki is" Tommy tells her as they approach the bar. They order the drinks and talk for a few more minutes. " so you told Nikki about Vince didn't you ?" Tommy asked her.
"yes I told Nikki about Vince last night and he understood everything" Stephanie replies. " I just wish he would have come out and told me about Ceejae and him instead of me figuring it out here tonight. " Stephanie sighs and looks over at Nikki and smiles. He looks her way and smiles back. Tommy's phone rings and it's Nikki. "dude you and Steph need to have a talk and fast , yeah she's figured it out about you and ceejae , yes she has and isn't letting Ceejae know what she knows" Tommy say's in the phone.
"yeah ok be there in a few" Tommy hangs up the phone and looks at Stephanie. Stephanie knows why Nikki called.
she shakes her head as their drinks are set on the bar. "Tommy I hope you are happy with her and this wasn't a mistake to help you find
her after all these years " Stephanie tells him as they walk back over to Nikki and Ceejae.
Nikki pulls her close to him and kisses her and whispers he will explain everything later and to be patient and have a good time tonight.
Stephanie nods her head and sits down in her seat. "well hey there welcome back to the party" Vince say's to them.
"well I could say the same thing to you stranger where ya been hiding?" Tommy ask's.
"had some stuff to take care of for tonights show before joining you" Vince say's trying not to look Stephanie's way.
Looking over at Ceejae, Stephanie asks soo Ceejae what have they told you about me?
Tommy and Nikki look each others way shake their heads and smile..they know this is getting really interesting and have an idea of what may be in store the rest of dinner and drinks....

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Ceejae exhaled the smoke from the drag of her cigarette and glanced at Nikki and her; she took a sip of her drink and set it down on the table. You could see the uneasiness from all the men at the table as they collectively glanced back and forth between CeeJae and Stephanie.
“Well honestly, not a whole hell of a lot.” She smirked. “I read a lot of you in the papers and magazines and alittle of what Tommy told me and some of what Nikki mentioned to me on the phone. I knew of you from Vince though.” CeeJae glanced over at Vince with a friendly smile. Vince looked down after looking into CeeJaes eyes. “We were together for quite a while as I am sure you have seen and read through all the gossip papers and shit. He told me about you when we first got together. I was there the night he thought he saw you at the club. We weren’t positive it was you but he did tell me he thought he saw you.” CeeJae took another drink and noticed the strong front Stephanie had put on was alittle chipped and cracked after CeeJae made mention of the club.
Tommy lightly layed his hand on CeeJaes leg under the table as if to say ‘Be nice babe’ she knew what he was trying to say as well as the look on his face. “ Go on CeeJae, Please.” Stephanies voice is what caused Nikki to speak up, “oh fuck, here we go. Maybe this was a fucking mistake.”
“Why? “ ceejae asked harshly, “Why was this a mistake? Was everything a mistake? Maybe it was but you’re not the one who looks like a fucking idiot or a fool! Or the Motley groupie whore!” CeeJaes voice was growing more agitated and loud. “Ceege, calm down babe it will be ok..” Vince spoke up. Tommy just sat there not knowing what to say. He knew how ceejae felt they spoke about this in the car on the way here.
“Ceege, everything was not a mistake. It is the past. You are not what people say. .” Nikki slowly looked Stephanie in the face, “CeeJae and I were close, best friends.. one night we got closer…We realized what we felt was more then friendship and we acted on that. We both were fucked up in the head.” CeeJae nodded..but inside her heart still ached over that.. because she knew what he was going to say next..”After that night we had kept it from everyone.. for as long as possible until we went on tour.. on the plane she left me something.. her story.. her life and journal.and She left California they day we got on the plane… Tommy was given the book.. Doc caused a lot of shit.. a lot of other shit happened that you know some of because of Tommy .. “ Stephanie tried very hard to hide her hurt and anger.. as a single tear fell from her eye.. “Steph I am sorry.. I was going to talk to you about this after we left New York. I swear…” Stephanie touched his hand, “It’s ok. I know you would have. I just wish you trusted me enough to tell me before now.”
“Look the reason Tommy and Vince were fighting was because of me. I was trying to sort shit out and they wouldn’t give me my space. And that’s what that was about. As for you helping Tommy find me, why did you do that? Why did you both do that?” She looked at Tommy tears filling her eyes, “Tommy , I left the day before our wedding and yet here you are... I told you that I am not going back to California, I told you I don’t know how this is going to work.. I was doing good keeping busy.. working for a great company, and have a new life where I am not followed arounds by cameras and idiots…” she stopped and took a drink of her Jack and Coke. “Babe, stop, I know what you said.. But I love you and I always will.. I don’t care.. You are the one who has my heart. “
CeeJae stood up, “I will be right back I have to go to the ladies room.” She looked over at Vince who had a torn look on his face and didn’t know what to do. He stood up and went to walk away, “Where you going?” she asked him, Just going to get another beer.” He held up his empty bottle.
He watched CeeJae walk over to the ladies room and went around the bar to head towards the men’s room which was right across the way from the girl’s room. He stood inside of the door way waiting for her to come out. As he did, he watched the table, watching Tommy, Nikki and Stephanie, they were talking and smiling and yet seemed a little uneasy…
“What are you doing?” CeeJae’s voice startled him. “Nothing,; just observing. What are you doing Ceege?” She looked him in the face, “I don’t know what you mean.”
“You know damned well what I mean. You’re letting your emotions get the best of you and the fuckin’ alcohol isn’t helping either. You need to slow down.”
“Why? Did she tell Nikki about you right away? What happened? And why the fuck are you letting this get to you? I see the hurt and pain in your eyes Vince; I have known you way too long and well to know this.” “Yeah? Then why the fuck did you leave? Why did you have to carry this shit out for that long and leave without saying a fuckin’ word? You told me you would never do that shit again. And you did.. “
CeeJae turned and looked at the table and back at Vince, “This is and was not my idea, it was your ex girlfriends and my ex fiancé; s idea.. They found me.. It wasn’t my idea for this little fucking meet up either! And now, it’s done.. You take care Vince, tell everyone I called a cab..Have Tommy leave my keys at the hotel desk and I will get them tomorrow.”
Vince laughed, “You’re leaving again? Just running out? Nice one.” “Why are you being this way to me? I am not the one who cheated on you and tore your heart out.. if I remember correctly you did that to me.. I also remember you calling me her fucking name a few times by mistake.. not only in bed .. and I also seem to recall I walked in on you and another woman.. so don’t play this bullshit with me Vince.. Tommy and Nikki were there for me and to help me pick up the pieces, Lissa was too… So just stop ok? I am going home.” And with that she walked out the door without Tommy and Nikki and Stephanie noticing…..

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Vince sighs and watches Ceejae walk toward the doors leading out of the hotel. Before she gets all the way there
he runs after her. Grabs her by the arm and spins her around. "ceejae I'm sorry I ever hurt you" he tells her.
"look you know you just can't walk out of here and out of Tommy's life again..he will come after you and not give up on you girl"
Vince tells her sincerly. "I know you still and always will love Tommy" Vince tells her. "Thats why him and Stephanie looked for and found you again after all these years. Tommy hasn't been happy in a very long time since you left. He will never be happy without you and can
you honestly tell me you've been happy without him in your life all these years?" Vince ask's her.
Ceejae looks away from Vnce. She doesn't want him to see the tears forming in her eyes. He had said something that cut her to the core..she had not been happy without Tommy in her life. Yeah there had been other men in her life and it wasn't the same with them.
Only thing she was happy about was not being followed around all the time by the paparazzi. She had missed Tommy so much over the years and wanted to contact him, but everytime she started to he had someone else on his arm on tv. Her friends in L.A. would sometimes call to check on her and tell her the latest gossip on Tommy which she really did't wanna hear. "are you gonna answer me Ceejae?" Vince asked . "yeah you are right Vince about not being happy without Tommy but I won't go through that bullshit againVince being followed around and camera's in my face all the time . Vince laughed. "it's not like that with him now Ceejae they pretty much leave him alone Tommy saw to that a long time ago " Vince told her. "well I'm still leaving here right now Vince" Ceejae told him.
Ceejae tried to pull away from Vince and as she got his hand off hers to walk away Vince told her you have to at least go tell him goodbye in person this time Ceejae you do owe him that much. "I can't change the past but I'm not about to make another mistake and let you walk away like this. " "FUCK YOU VINCE" Ceejae yelled as she turned to walk away. "Ceejae he will come after you so you may as well come back inside with me. " Vince yelled after her. Tears were falling now and Ceejae knew Vince was right, Tommy would come after her and not let her out of his site. She loved him but was she willing to sit there with Nikki and Stephanie knowing full well she had un resolved feelings for Nikki too? "ahh Hell Fuck it I need another drink anyway " Ceejae said to Vince and turned around to walk back inside the hotel...


Tommy, Nikki and Stephanie are talking and laughing. Stephanie looks at Nikki and tries to hide the hurt she is feeling right now.
She can't believe what she'd just heard Ceejae say about her and Vince. That she knew about her way back then? Vince really had sent someone to find her? Looking at Nikki Stephanie tried to hide the tears. "Nikki why didn't you tell me this last night after I'd told you everything about Vince and me all those years ago?" she asked. "babe I wanted to tell you once we were back home." Nikki told her.
"Nikki I have suspected something more went on with you and her all these years and tonight just confirmed those suspicions." Stephanie told him. "how did you figure it out Steph?" Tommy asked her. "everytime her name was mentioned both of you got this look of hurt in your eyes and tried to play it off as if nothing was wrong. Nikki you would go to the studio and not come out for a while. You would read the journal over and over again. " she told him. "you knew about the journal?" Nikki asked. "yes I saw it a few times when I was in the studio with you but never said anything about it. It was your personal space and what's there is your privacy" she told him.
Tommy and Nikki looked at each other surprised she knew about it and never read it. "Tommy you would take off on your bike like you were lost in thought" Stephanie said.
"Nikki you would sometimes say her name in your sleep, and have a conversation with her. The things you said really made me wonder about you two being more than friends. I wanted to ask you so many times when her name was brought up and didn't.
Maybe I should have a long time ago. I don't know how long it lasted or how many times it happened with you and her but I do know you care about her more than you let on. " Stephanie said to him. Nikki looked at her in shock. He had no idea Stephanie had figured out so much over the years. "Nikki what I can't understand is why? why did it happen between you two when you knew she and Tommy were in love and were engaged to be married?" Stephanie went on. "why did you not open up and tell me all this last night after I told you about Vince?" she asked tears forming in her eyes? Nikki put his hand on hers to comfort her. "babe there is so much you don't know that happened back then. Things were crazy and tempers were flaring , Ceejae and Tommy were not getting along and she was dealing with her ex trying to come back into her life. Ceejae needed space from Tommy and to hide from her ex cause he wouldn't leave her alone. I offered to let her stay with me to get her head on straight." "One night ceejae and I were drinking and talking out on the veranda and things got heated up. I was only trying to comfort her by hugging her and she kissed me . " Nikki said hiding the full truth as to what really happened. Tommy didnt wanna hear this anymore. It was killing him inside just knowing his best friend had slept with the woman he truly loved with all his heart. He just knew that Stephanie deserved the truth now .
"I pulled away from her , I told her this can't happen and she wouldn't listen to me and kissed me again, that time I kissed her back and we ended up in the living room" Nikki told her leaving out the details not for her sake but for Tommy's as well. It only happened that one time " Nikki said looking at both Stephanie and Tommy. "after that night I felt bad for it even happening at all, Yes I do care about Ceejae as a friend and always will." Nikki told her.
Tommy looked at Nikki and now understood, he knew how ceejae got when she was drinking, won't take no for an answer and will get her way with men. He shook his head and laughed. "so how long did she stay with you Nikki?" Stephanie asked. "a month or so until we left for tour" Tommy said. " I wanted her to go with me ..with us but she refused to go, said she had stuff to do and work wouldn't let her be gone that long" Tommy told her. "the day we left I begged her to go with me and she wouldn't go..I knew something was wrong and she wouldn't tell me " Tommy said. Stephanie sat there in disbelief. Here Tommy and Nikki were both hurt by a woman they both care about and Tommy still wants to marry her. Shaking her head and wiping the tears away she looked at Nikki and smiled.
"I just wished she would have talked to me , told me she was leaving instead of leaving the way she did." Tommy said.


"Tommy was this a mistake tonight to have us meet so soon after finding her again? Maybe you should have waited and let her sort things out in her heart and mind before meeting me." Stephanie said.
"No it wasn't a mistake Steph, Tommy said. This is how Ceejae reacts when she's been drinking , she hates for things to be kept secret" Nikki said looking at Tommy.
"ok I understand now why she was downing the drinks so fast...she was getting the courage up to spill the beans" Stephanie said.
"Speaking of her shouldn't she be back by now?" Nikki asked.
Tommy looked behind him to see if he could see Ceejae out in the lobby. Last he saw her she was talking to Vince and he's not there either. Something's not right here Nikki thought looking in the same direction Tommy was. They both looked at each other and at the same time said "OH FUCK NOT AGAIN" Stephanie knew what they meant by that. Ceejae had left without a word again. Said what she had to say and left. Nikki and Tommy had the same thought..Ceejae had left with Vince. Something she has done in the past when she wanted to get away from the both of them . Vince was always the one she would vent to and ended up with him for hours drinking and stuff. Tommy sometimes wondered if she ever got over her feelings for Vince too but had never asked her.
All three of them got up from the table and ran out to the lobby and headed for the entrance. Nikki and Stephanie went one direction and Tommy the other. Tommy was not about to let her walk out of his life again for another 5 years. He finally had her back in his life and that's where he wanted her to be.
Nikki spotted Vince and Ceejae at the bar and whistled to get Tommy's attention.
Tommy ran over to the bar and put his arm around Ceejae.."are you ok babe?" he asked.
"hell no I'm not ok..I'm pissed none of you bothered to tell Stephanie the truth about me and everything that happened in the past"
"YOU NIKKI" she said poking him in the chest again "SHOULD HAVE TOLD HER BEFORE TONIGHT" Ceejae said now yelling at both of them. "Shh babe calm down everything is out in the open now and no everything in the past was not a mistake" Tommy said calmly as they walked Ceejae back to the table .......
Vince walked behind them with a smile on his face...he'd found a way to keep Ceejae there long enough for Tommy to come find her as he knew Tommy would...

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CeeJae sat down in her chair at the table across from Nikki and Stephanie and Vince on one side of her and Tommy on the other with his hand on her leg. She took another drink of her glass of Jack and coke Vince bought for her.
“Ok look you guys have a show to do and I have some things to do. So why don’t we just wrap this up and Head out. Tommy if you want I can drive myself home and you can hang out.”
“No way am I going to let you drive.” he smiled with a small little laugh. “You have had way too much to drink.”
“Yeah, I guess. I can call a cab.”
“Look CeeJae, I know this is a little much for you right now and I am sorry all this had to come out like this for both of us. But we thought you would love to meet me and see the guys.” Stephanie placed her hand on Nikki’s.
“A little much is an understatement, but I have dealt with a hell of a lot worse than this shit storm.” CeeJae smirked looking at all three of the guys. Vince smirked back and shook his head and took a long drink from his glass.
“OK…well umm.. I just wanted to let you know that I am so glad we met and we found you. Especially for Tommy.” She smiled at Tommy.
“MM hmm… one question.. Take it anyway you want Stephanie.. Did Tommy make moves on you?” Stephanie and all of them practically choked or coughed in surprise.
“Ceege, come on now.. That’s uncalled for.” Vince looked CeeJae in the face. “Is it?”
“Your damn right it is. What the fuck was that question for? There is no reason for that question.” Tommy was upset about how CeeJae was acting and knew it was time to leave before ceejae said something she would totally not mean or regret. “We need to go and talk about this later.”
“Why?” CeeJae asked. Nikki raised his voice a little upset over CeeJae’s accusations, “Because your acting like a drunken idiot and a fool CeeJae and its fucking bullshit and wrong and you know it. You sit there and accuse Tommy of making moves on My girlfriend and your jealousy is bad when your drinking. You have done nothing but be a bitch the whole time we were here towards Stephanie. What the fuck has she done to you? Not a fucking thing Ceege. She has been nothing but a great friend to Tommy. That’s fucking it.” He looked CeeJae dead in the face and knew that look.. The look of hiding the pain, fear and tears and hurt back.. He suddenly felt bad for being so harsh but he knew it had to be done and besides that’s how he always was with her.
CeeJae sat there for a moment, finished her glass, stood up and walked out without a word to any of them, Tommy quickly stood up to follow her out. “Sorry guys, I will be back after I get her back to her place to chill.”
“T I am sorry dude but she was getting out of line.” Nikki shook Tommy’s hand. “No worries dude.”
“Can you blame her..” Vince commented as he stood up and walked away.”In a way Yes I can.” Stephanie called after him. He gave her that look of disbelief of what she just said and shook his head and walked off.
Tommy caught up with CeeJae walking to her car, “Ceege wait up would you.” As he went to grab her arm and turned her to him he saw the tears and hurt and anger in her eyes. “I don’t know if I can do this Tommy. There are some wounds and mistakes that time cannot heal.” “I want to know one thing, why would you ask that shit about me and Stephanie?” Well is it true? I see the way you two look at each other and act.”
“You and Nikki used to be that way. You would lay on the couch and put your head on his lap and shit and would lean on him… “
“Answer my question Tommy….”She stopped at her car.
Tommy looked down and shook his head.. “DID YOU TRY TO FUCK HER?” she raised her voice. Tommy snapped his head up and looked into her face, “YOU’RE OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND! NO I DIDN’T TRY TO FUCK HER! AND ANOTHER THING, I ASKED HER TO HELP ME FUCKING FIND YOU! SHE HAS BEEN A GOOD FRIEND THAT IS IT! IF THIS IS HOW ITS GOING TO BE WITH YOU THEN FORGET IT! I HAVE NEVER SEEN YOU LIKE THIS AND I DON’T FUCKING LIKE IT AND DON’T FUCKING WANT IT!” He threw her keys on the hood of her car and stormed back to the hotel lobby.
CeeJae was so surprised by that, she stood there watching him disappear back into the hotel and then grabbed her keys and got in her car and as she pulled out of the parking lot she chirped her tires. Good thing no cops were nearby. The whole ride home she was baffled and went through each scenario in her mind of the events that happened.
As CeeJae pulled into her parking garage is when she felt more effects from the drinks she had. She knew then she should not have drove but glad she made it back safe. She got out of her car and headed to the elevator and pushed the button to her floor when her cell phone rang and then stopped. She knew it would, she always lost signal in there and the parking garage. She would check it when she got inside her place.
As the doors opened she saw Jay coming closer, “Hey stranger.” He smiled.
“Hey, how are ya?” she tried to sound happy. “I’m good. Hey Listen I wanted to come by and apologize to you for the shit that happened..” CeeJae held up her hand to stop him, “Stop, Its ok. I am sorry too.”
“Ceege, are you ok? You actually apologized.” He smirked. “Oh whatever.” she laughed a little.
“Seriously, are you ok?”
“Yes Jay, I am fine, just had a few drinks and want to go take a shower and take a nap.” Jay looked at her, he knew there was more but he knew not to push it with her, especially when she had been drinking. “Hey no problem, I guess I will see you later at the concert.”
“What? Oh yeah, I guess so, See you there.” She waved as she headed to her door and fumbled with her keys to unlock the door. She opened up her door she breathed a sigh of relief and tossed her keys on the table and went to the kitchen and grabbed a can of Mt. Dew from the fridge and the remote off the counter and turned on her stereo and grabbed her cigarettes and went out on the patio and sat in her chair.
The first song that came on was a voice that sounded so familiar and after the first few verses she knew.
“and the label said take two for pain
so now i medicate my brain
the conflict rubs against my grain
but i cannot flush it down the drain
we are so hopeless
we are hopelessly in love
she breaks my will
she's my bitter pill
addicted to her
can't fight off the chill
she blurs my world
she's my bitter pill
we creep the night
just to taste the thrill
hopelessly in love”
She shook her head, Smiled as a tear rolled down her cheek. She had never seen Tommy react like that to her before. His last words to her were “I don’t fucking like it and I DON’T FUCKING WANT IT” and the keys being thrown... It ran through her mind over and over, the hurt and anger in his eyes and face. She knew he meant it. The only question she had was, did she want this? Did she, could she move on without him again? She had finally gotten over him when he came back into her life like a steam roller. And she fucked up once again. She could only wonder what was going to happen next and if she should go to the concert or not.

[Tnangel5173]

"Well Well look who decides to make an appearance finally after the fireworks are over" Stephanie say's looking away from Nikki.
Nikki looked in the direction Stephanie was and saw Mick and Lissa walking in. Nikki laughed and shook his head .
Tommy walked back in behind Mick and Lissa with a drink in his hand. Stephanie had never saw Tommy look so hurt and pissed at the
same time but understood why. "so what did we miss" Lissa asked sitting down at the table beside Stephanie. "oh the usual when it comes to
Ceejae when she's been FUCKING DRINKING" said Tommy before Stephanie could answer. "oh fuck what happened this time with her?" Mick asked
curious now. They all looked at each other and knew they had to fill Mick and Lissa in on the events that had just taken place before Ceejae left.
"what doesn't happen with Ceejae when she's drinking?" Nikki asked. "just ceejae being her normal drunken self as usual" Nikki said.
"what did she do or Tommy took a sip of the Jack and coke he brought in with him. "well first she was fine till she started drinking, then all of a sudden she turns to Steph and asks what all of us had told her about Ceejae. " "Steph did a good job of telling her what she knew about her, then all of a sudden everything about her and Nikki came out , something Stephanie didn't know about at the time or so we thought" Tommy said. Mick looked over at Nikki and Stephanie and saw the hurt in Nikki's eyes. A look he'd saw a million times before when he came down to Ceejae. "THEN she left the room to go to the bathroom and we all thought she had left but was at the bar with Vince. WE got back here and next thing Ceejae asked Stephanie was Did I ever make any moves on her?" WHAT THE FUCK ?" Tommy yelled. "I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE EVEN ASKED HER THAT?" Tommy said rasing his voice more and more. Lissa looked at Stephanie and gave her that I'm sorry look and shook her head slightly. "Stephanie so you didn't know anything about Nikki and Ceejae until tonight ?" Mick asked. " I suspected something had gone on between them years ago but never asked about it, I figured eventually Nikki would come out and tell me when he was ready" Stephanie said looking over at Nikki putting her hand on his leg. Nikki didn't say anything just nodded and sighed. "DUDE DO I EVEN WANT THIS WITH HER AGAIN? CAN I REALLY BE SO STUPID AS TO PUT MY HEART THROUGH THIS WITH HER AGAIN?" Tommy asked . "So where is she now Tommy?" Lissa asked. "SHE LEFT , I THREW THE KEYS ON THE CAR AND TOLD HER TO GO I DIDN'T WANT ITAGAIN' Tommy said outloud. "TOMMY you let her drive after she'd been drinking?" Lissa asked surprised. "Man she must have really pissed you off to ever let her drive like that" Lissa said. Thinking about it now Tommy knew he shouldn't have let Ceejae drive ...he just couldn't be in the same car with her after what had taken place. Walking away from her was the best thing he knew he could do so he could calm down...
"Tommy it's ok sweetie" Stephanie said to him. "I can understand why she asked that , I would have asked the same thing too if i'd been her. "
Nikki looked at her in surprise as did Mick and Lissa. "HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT?" Tommy asked. Stephanie looked at him and calmly said “Tommy look at how much time we spent together alone while Nikki was busy in the studio?” “Ceejae and Nikki were alone a long time at his place once and things happened with them” Stephanie said. “So yeah I can see where she was coming from on that stand point, she was thinking back to that time period” Stephanie explained. “WELL SHE STILL HAD NO RIGHT TO ASSUME ANYTHING”
Tommy said with fists clenched on the table. Lissa looked over at Mick as if to say talk to him. Mick shook his head and wasn’t sure what to say if anything that would calm him down. “How much did she have to drink before all this took place ?” Lissa asked. “A few drinks “ Nikki replied.
“Well it don’t take much for her to get a buzz going that’s for sure” Mick said
Sarcasticly , making all of them laugh.
“Steph I’m sorry I yelled at you, you didn’t deserve it from me” Tommy told her sweetly, and if you would all excuse me I’m going up to my room.”
Tommy walked out of the room towards the elevators. He was still pissed at Ceejae and wondered if he’d even see her later that night.
“Well that went just wonderful” Nikki said after Tommy left. Stephanie put her hand on his and smiled. “Well you can’t say you didn’t warn me about her” Stephanie said smiling. Nikki smiled and shook his head.
“so what time do we have to be at the venue tonight?” Mick asked.
“I’m tired and want to take a nap before we have to head out” Mick said yawning. “ Lissa looked at her watch and told him in an hr and a half.
Mick stood up, walked over to Stephanie and gave her a quick hug.
“don’t let Ceejae get to you, this was nothing compared to what she usually pulls after she’s been drinking” Mick told her laughing. “come on Mick let’s get you upstairs for a nap and let these two talk” Lissa said.
Nikki looked over at Stephanie and saw the tears starting to form in her eyes. He knew he had a lot of explaining to do and wasn’t sure where to begin. He was also pissed at Ceejae and hid his anger from everyone but Stephanie. She could tell by his tone with her he’d had enough of her outbursts during the reunion.
Tommy is in his room pacing back and forth. He knows he has to calm down before going to the venue. He cannot stop thinking about what Ceejae pulled during the meeting. He loves her and wants to spend the rest of his life with her. “DAMN IT CEEJAE” he yells . Still feeling bad about yelling at Stephanie , he decides he needs to get out and clear his head. On the way down to the lobby the phone rings. Looking at the phone he see’s it’s Nikki calling. “yo”
He answers. “yeah dude I’m ok” “yeah I’m sure” he replies. “just going out to clear my head before we leave out to the venue” “Oh give Steph a hug for me and tell her I will talk to her later.” Tommy say’s into the phone. Tommy hangs up the phone as the elevator doors open.
Once in the lobby , he walks out to the sidewalk. Looking both ways he spots his bus at the curb. Walking to the bus , he opens the door and steps inside. “ what’s wrong with you?”
Tommy turns around and say’s nothing at first. Not thinking about it, but his friend and driver was there on the bus. “dude everything right now” Tommy replies. “Ok wanna talk about it?”
“no not really” Tommy replies. Shaking his head he walks to the back of the bus and goes into the back room and closes the door. His friend stands up and walks to the mini fridge under the counter and opens it. Finding a beer he opens it and walks back to the room Tommy just went in. He knows when Tommy is in this mood he does wanna talk about it and knocks on the door.
“come in” Tommy say’s from inside the room. C.T. hands him the beer as he walks in. Tommy takes it from him and tells him thanks. “so I take it things didn’t go so well with the reunion between all of you and Ceejae” he say’s. “Dude you wouldn’t believe what Ceejae pulled” Tommy said shaking his head. “ so tell me “ C.T. say’s. Tommy explains everything that happened . He still can’t believe Stephanie’s reactions to everything. She could have left and been pissed at all of us for not telling her about Nikki and Ceejae. She was understanding through all of it and even tried to calm him down as well. C.T. laughed and said “well did you really expect anything else of Ceejae?” “You know how she is and gets when she starts drinking, maybe you shouldn’t let her drink anymore” Tommy laughed and nodded his head in agreement, knowing his friend was right about that. “ dude you always know how to make me laugh” Tommy say’s. C.T. laughed and knew Tommy would see Ceejae again. “you need to talk to her “T” you were both angry when she left. You WANT to be with her and you need to work this out. Is she going to be at the show tonight?” he ask’s. “do we need to go pick her up on the way?” Tommy looked at his friend and shrugged his shoulders. “well let me know and we can leave earlier than the others to get her.” He say’s. Tommy nods his head and lays back on the bed.
Back in the room Stephanie looks at Nikki and say’s “well that went well” Nikki could hear the sarcasm in her voice and laughed. “yeah it went as I suspected it would. “ Nikki pulled Stephanie to him. All he wanted to do was hold her in his arms and not let go. Stephanie held on to him as tight as she could and tried to stop the tears. Nikki could sense she was about to break down. He knew he should have told her about him and Ceejae the night before when he had the chance. He should’ve known it’d come out sooner or later. Nikki walks her over to the bed and sits her down gently. “Steph I’m sorry for not telling you about me and Ceejae all those years ago” he say’s. “It was a one time thing, fling so to speak” he begins. “we were out on my patio one night and I was going through a rough time and so was she with Tommy. I was trying to console her because she was upset. Next thing I knew we were kissing and shit. I tried to pull away and stop it but she continued and one thing lead to another and we ended up going at it like two hormonal teenagers. “ Nikki told her. Stephanie didn’t say anything and listened to his explanation. “Eventually her and Tommy did get back together for a little while” until one time we left for tour. Tommy begged her to go with us and she refused to go, all of us begged her to go, including me” he said. “still she refused to go” “So that’s when she walked out of Tommy’s life?” Stephanie asked. “yes that’s when she walked out of his life unbeknownst to all of us” Nikki said. Ceejae and I were close Steph very close and to this day I regret what happened between us. I felt like I’d screwed our friendship after that night “ Stephanie looked at him and asked “so when did you find her journal?” “I found it in my suitcase when I was unpacking it on the bus. “ “Tommy didn’t know about it until after I finished reading it” Nikki told her. Later on when I thought the time was right I let Tommy read it. “When we got back from the tour she was gone. Never told us she was leaving..we all tried to call her and she never answered the phone, eventually she changed her number and none of us had a clue as to where she could be. I suspected she may have moved back to New York but couldn’t be positive.” Nikki told her. “so why did she leave Nikki?” Stephanie asked. “it had to do with her ex boyfriend Mike” Nikki replied. “I honestly think she left to protect Tommy from her and her past” he explained. Stephanie gave him a hug and told him she understood now. “Nikki if there’s anything else I need to know just tell me now” she said. Nikki looked at her and shook his head no. “no Steph there’s nothing else about me and her anyway, however she did have a short fling with Vince shortly after he moved to L.A. “ “SO she knew who I was before she even met me today?” Stephanie asked. “it’s possible she knew your name” Nikki replied. Stephanie shook her head in amazement. “I think I need a strong drink now!” she said smiling. Nikki looked at her and smirked, “no you don’t but I think I know what you do need” he said as he kissed her and gently pushed her back onto the bed….

[HollywoodVampirella]

Tommy sat there wondering what happened. He went thru the events over and over.. He couldn’t help but remember back to the time he and Nikki had to bust down CeeJaes door and found her on the floor and her place was tore up. She was in such a bad place then.. He had hoped to never see her that way again and wondered if he should have left her alone and not come back into her life. He remembered those words the Doctor said to him after she was rushed to the hospital. Seeing her hooked up to machines and tubes and laying there … “Her pulse was faint and her heart rate was barely there.. they revived her in the ambulance on the way here….” That was the first time he had ever seen her hit bottom and the last.. After the drinking she did with the reunion he hoped it didn’t trigger that.

CeeJae sat in the chair on the balcony of her place just watching the lights from the cars and the buildings and thought about what Tommy had said to her. Then started thinking about the events that led up to her and Nikki and how she met Vince and how Stephanie had seemed to come between her and Vince somehow and now this. And of course her drinking didn’t help matters. She knew it was a mistake, her self control was still an issue with drinking. It had been so long since she drank like that. The last time was when she arrived back here in New York after leaving California. She tried to drink to forget or make it better to sleep. After a while and with Jay helping her she went back to meetings and got sober, for the most part. She would have qa drink now and then but not like tonight. And to top it off jealousy had to rear its ugly head. The only reason it did was all the memories flooded back, when she was staying with Nikki after getting out of the hospital and that call from that girl Randi and Tommy admitting to Ceejae he cheated o n her twice. She still had trust issues with him while he was on tour.. Tears started running down her face. She lit a cigarette and took a sip of her old favorite, Jack and Coke…Thinking of everything, how friendships drifted and were fucked up and the hurt and pain and the emotional roller coaster.. then the fun times and the laughter and love….
“Oh God why are you doing this to me again!” she cried out and began to cry harder. Her phone rang, she debated on answering it she didn’t look to see who it was. She didn’t need to, she knew…She reached for the phone with hesitation.. “Hello..” she tried to answer without emotion.
“Hey…”
“Whats up?” CeeJae tried ahrd to swallow the lump in her throat.
“Just making sure you are ok. Are you?”
“Yep. I am just fucking peachy. How are you? I didn’t expect to hear from you.”
“Well after everything that was said I had a lot to think about and I kind of got scared of what you might do. I don’t want to find you in the hospital or worse.”
“Umm don’t worry about me you have more important people to worry about and this concert. I will be just fine. I will recover. I always do somehow.”
“Ceege, stop.”
“what? Stop what? I aint doing anything.”
“Stop trying to be a bad ass and a bitch it isn’t working, I can hear it in your voice and I bet if I were to come there right now I would see that you were crying.”
“you know me too well…”she choked up and tried so hard to fight back the tears.
“Do I need to come over?”
“Nope, you need to get ready for the show…”
“Are you coming? I can pick you up.”
Silence … “Ceejae? Are you there?”
“Yeah.. uhh.. I don’t think I am going to be there. Sorry.. I think its for the best.”
“Best for who?”
“It’s Best for everyone involved; especially me. I can’t do this anymore. I mean so much has been said and done over so long, so much … I just don’t think I can go through that again..Dont get me wrong it was a awesome time when they were good.. But I had never hit bottom so hard and so badly as I did out there.. Hell I had a relationship with another woman and beat her! How fucked up can ya get !! I almost died.. All because of the hurt… the pain I couldn’t deal with…” the tears flowed freely now and she couldn’t hold them back even if she tried.

“Look we all have hit bottom at one point or another and you know this. Sweetie I am so proud of you . I saw you today and you took me back.. Back to when we would ride the bike and just park and talk and watch the stars and the sun rise or go down.. Babe it was awesome.”

“Vince, I just can’t do this right now.. I can’t.. I know your trying to help and connect somehow, but right now it’s just fucking with my head and heart even more. I just think its best if I stay away, ya know?” She didn’t mean for it to sound hateful or hurt him but it was not a good idea right now to see him or Tommy for that matter..
Tommy pretty much from what she gathered broke it off with her, all because she questioned his faithfulness to her. Some wounds take more time to heal. She was sure Tommys wound weren’t completely healed either, esp with what happened with Her and Nikki…even her wounds were not healed from that . She didn’t think it ever would, oh she put on a good face and show to make him feel better and so that Tommy and Nikki would be cool, but inside it all killed her.. even when she came back to New York it killed her. The only person she confided in was Jay and he was there for her in more ways then one.. but right now all she needed was to be alone…

“Ceege.. hello? Are you there?” she forgot Vince was still on the phone..

“huh? Uh yeah Sorry , listen I am going to take a nice hot shower and go to bed, you guys have a great show and umm.. call me when you hit the next town ok? I gotta go..”
Vince began to say something but CeeJae hung up and turned off the ringer and lit another cigarette and sat there…