Her Life after...Maybe...

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae sits outside on her terrace smoking a cigarette, her thoughts wonder to her past. The smell of her coffee reminds her of the last morning she had with him. His last words; his last kiss on her lips was so soft and gentle and his smile broke her heart.
Tears fill her eyes as she tries to swallow that lump in her throat. Hard to believe that almost a year has past. She finishes her cigarette and walks back inside her apartment, taking one last look on the water and the lake.

With a sigh she sets down her coffee on the breakfast bar and picks up the envelope she received yesterday…still unopened.
“Why now.. Do I want to open this? Do I really need to reopen old wounds?” She thinks to herself hesitant on opening it.
“Fuck it.” She says out loud and takes a knife and opens the envelope. Two tickets fall out as she pulls out a letter. She picks up the tickets and sets them on the bar and unfolds the hand written letter.

‘CeeJae,

I know it has been a long time…It took me a while to find you but obviously I did. I am sending you some tickets to the show. We will be playing there and would really like to see you. I don’t know if you have someone in your life but incase that is what the other ticket is for. So much has happened since you left… I just want to catch up and talk. I hope you can make it…

Much Love…T’

Her heart felt heavy…She knew they were coming to New York. She wasn’t planning on going to the show. She was going to spend the night in her apartment shut off from everything. She knew they would be in the area for a few dates and thought she had been in the clear. The ringing of her cell phone distracted her thoughts.
“Hello”
“Hey Ceege, its Jay.”
“ I know who it is Jay, what’s up?”
“Well umm.. Motley Crue is playing and well…”
“I know…I don’t know if I want to go Jay.”
“What? Why not? Its been a year and I know that you have moved on.”
CeeJae sighed, she had a moment of weakness with Jay a few times.. but for her it was nothing serious, just a need that needed to be met and Jay was a good looking guy and well… hey it was good. She just wished he would not try to make it more then it is.
“Ceege? You there?”
“Huh? Yeah I’m here Jay, I just don’t know if I am going. Why don’t you ask someone else to go?”
“I wanted to go with you but I will ask someone else if that’s what you want.”
“Yeah Jay, it is. Sorry. I just have a lot going on right now with work and shit.”
“Ok well, I will catch you later then.”
“K bye Jay…”
As she hung up she just felt like screaming…
“I need a shower” she said out loud and headed to her bedroom.

[HollywoodVampirella]

After her shower, CeeJae got dressed and pulled her hair up and went to the store. She grabbed her list for the errands she had to do took the elevator down to the parking garage. As she got out of the elevator her cell phone rang..
“Shit” CeeJae fumbled around her purse for her phone and looked at the screen…
“Restricted ?”
“Hello”
“Is this CeeJae?”
“Who is this?” She made known the Aggravation in her voice as she proceeded to her car.
“This is Terry with …ainment…I was….going…are…”
“Stupid reception!” CeeJae closed her phone.. Reception was lost; she always lost calls in the parking garage.
Soon she was coming out of the garage and onto the small main street. CeeJae could never figure out why all this for the apartment building in such a small area, it wasn’t like it was New York City. This was a small city with a moderate population. Her apartment building was the biggest building in this place and it seemed to almost stick out. It was built with money in mind of course. People who lived here made good money you could tell. CeeJae made enough money that was for sure. Her job and her investments she made with some of the money her father had left her and when she sold the house and the business her father had built. She didn’t need to worry about money for a long time. She just couldn’t sit around and do nothing and so she got a job in the city doing small management stuff for bands trying to “make it big”.
She pulled into the parking lot of the small mall that was in the near by town. Once again her cell phone rang.
“Hello?”
“CeeJae this is Terry.. We seemed to have gotten disconnected earlier.”
“Yeah I was in a parking garage.”
“Oh.. I see. Is this a good time?”
With a heavy sigh she replied “Is it ever a good time?”
“Oh uh… well I am calling to see if you were going to make it to the show.”
Oh for crying out loud. Tommy doesn’t know when to stop… she thought to herself..
“Look I don’t know if it is such a good idea…I mean…”
“Oh well I thought since you helped V.A. get this show you would want to be there. They wanted to leave you two tickets…”
V.A.? Oh sorry I wasn’t thinking.. I might be able to I just have to check my schedule. Can I call you back later or tomorrow?”
“Oh of course. I will just set the tickets aside for you until I then. Well sorry to take up your time I have to make a few other calls for the venue.”
“Not a problem Terry. I will get back to you. Bye.”
CeeJaes heart slowed down.. She breathed a sigh of relief. She would have wondered how he got her cell and if he knew where she lived. She shook her head and headed into the mall.
She sat down after doing some shopping and ate her Chinese food she had ordered from the cafeteria. Thoughts ran through her head, more like little memories of her past in California. How her and Tommy and Nikki would go out for sushi and how they would make fun of how much she hated it. As she sat there her thoughts were interrupted by 3 teenage girls excitement and how they got tickets close to the stage of the Motley Crue concert that was coming in 2 days.
“Oh my god I cannot believe how close we are gonna be to the stage! We can almost touch Nikki!” the blonde was almost jumping out of her seat.
“We need to look really good. Maybe we can get picked to go backstage.” The brunette was trying to be calm.
“Yeah and then look out! Tommy will never forget me.” The other blonde said with a huge smile.
CeeJae just shook her head and almost laughed as she finished her food. “If they only knew…” She thought. And with that she got up and grabbed her bags and headed for the parking lot when her cell phone rang. “Restricted.”
“Hello?”
“CeeJae?” the voice sounded very familiar.
“Yeah who is this?”
“Aww come on you mean you don’t know who this is?”
By now her suspicions were coming to light and her heart almost stopped. Mixed emotions began to stir.
“If its who I think it is; how did you get my number?”
Silence…
“Well.. How? And why are you calling me?”
‘Wow.. You’re mad aren’t you?”
“Uhhh ya think?” she shook her head and unlocked her car.
“Why are you mad? Did you get my letter?”
“Yeah I did.”
“Will you come to the show?”
“I don’t know if it is a good idea Tommy. Do you?”
“Why not, its just friends getting together after a long time and catching up. And well.. I wanted to see you.”
“What if I don’t want to go?” She fought back her feelings.
“Please… just come please.” His voice ran through her ear and into her mind and flowed through her heart which made it heavy…She fought back the tears building in her eyes and the lump in her throat.
“I might have to work.. and I have a lot to do. I don’t know if it is a good time Tommy.”
“Then I will come see you.”
“No...” She said quickly.
“Why not? Why won’t you see me?”
“Look I have to go, it’s illegal to talk on a cell phone and drive and I don’t feel like getting a ticket Tommy.”
“Fine, I will call you back later.” He hung up.
CeeJae just sat in her parked car in the lot trying not to cry..
“I am NOT going to do this.. I am not going to cry.. I cant..” She told herself as one tears escaped from her fight and trickled down her cheek.

[HollywoodVampirella]

After collecting herself CeeJae proceeded to get her groceries and head back to her apartment. She slowly parked her new Charger into her spot and got out of her car to get the bags from the trunk. Her phone rang…
“OH for fucks sake!” She couldn’t help but yell. A woman going to her car turned to her and then quickly went to her car.
“Hello!”
“Wow. I hope I didn’t piss you off.”
“Ugh Jay no its not you. I am just not having a good day.”
“Want me to come over?” CeeJae just couldn’t get through to him.. She was trying very hard to be nice and not hurt him.
“No Jay I just want to be alone.. ok? I am dealing with something that I cant do with other people.”
“Oh.. well ok. If you want to meet up later I will be at the club.”
“I don’t think I will be there but have fun Jay. Listen I need to go I am going to start walking and I will lose my signal.”
“Ok well bye Ceege.”
CeeJae opened her trunk and grabbed her bags then headed for the elevator. Her cell phone started to ring again.
“Oh for crying out loud!” She decided not to look and just kept walking it wouldn’t do any good to answer it; not with the shitty reception down here. The phone stopped ringing as soon as she stepped into the elevator.
As she reached the 5th floor and the doors opened her phone began to ring again.
“fuck it they can leave a message” CeeJae had her hands full of bags anyway and she was trying to get her key out to unlock her door.
“Finally..” She sighed out loud as she walked into her apartment and set her bags on the breakfast bar. She started to put her groceries away when her cell phone rang again. She quickly fumbled around and found her cell and flipped it open…
“Hello” she answered in almost frustration.
“Wow, you still sound mad.” Tommy was smiling she could tell from his voice. After al the time that had passed she still knew him too well.
“Tommy, I didn’t think you would call this soon, I just got in a little bit ago and was putting things away.”
“So are you still mad at me?”
“Oh god… Tommy…”
“Yes?”
“How did you get my number? You never answered me before. And How did you find me?”
“Ceege, come on.. I have my ways and It wasn’t that hard to find you.” HE was almost chuckling.
“Why?” she tried not to sound hurt.
“Babe, please don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“Sound like that. It kills me. It makes me want to just come over there and hold you.”
“Sorry, then don’t call me…”
“I had to…I want to see you CeeJae.”
“Not a good idea…I just think we should leave things as they were Tommy. What I did was for the best for you and I. I had to leave.”
“I know.. But I am not ready to let go without a fight. I tried Ceege. I really tried but I can’t shake you baby.”
Tears filled her eyes and she couldn’t hide her emotions anymore. “Don’t do this Tommy. Just stop. I have to go. I can’t talk right now.” As he tried to plead with her she closed her phone and turned it off and went into her room and lay in her bed and cried. She hadn’t cried this hard since she left Tommy days before their wedding.
After about an hour or so and CeeJae had calmed down her doorbell rang…She didn’t answer it and just lay in her bed hoping that whoever it was would go away. Then the banging on the door made her jump up.
“Who ever the fuck this is better have a damn good fucking reason for pounding on my mother fucking door!” She yelled as she got closer to answer the door. When she opened the door she slammed it back shut…

[HollywoodVampirella]

“FUCK!” CeeJae yelled as once again there was knocking on the door. So she sighed and opened the door.
“Why are you here?” She looked Jay in the eyes, and knew he had a few drinks in him.
“Damn babe, I just wanted to check on you. I was worried.” He stood therewith a smirk on his face. She knew what he wanted and it was NOT going to happen. “Can I come in?”
“No you can not come in Jay go home and sleep it off and just please leave me alone.”
“What’s wrong? Talk to me Ceege.” He went to reach out for her and CeeJae stepped back.
“Jay please don’t. I don’t feel like talking I just want to go back to sleep. I just want to be alone. Please just go home Jay. I will talk to you tomorrow. Ok?”
“Ok … well call me if you need me. I will come over anytime.”
“Yeah I know. Now go home!” She pushed him out of the doorway and closed the door as he turned and walked toward the elevator.
CeeJae rummaged through her purse and grabbed her cigarettes and grabbed a wineglass and got the bottle from the fridge and poured a glass of wine and went out onto the terrace to sit and relax and smoke. She felt a little better after having a good cry even though she hated crying. Being here in this place in New York she felt some sort of peace for a long time. Until now that is…she knew they were back on tour, but never thought he would look for her. After walking away from California and the life she had there she thought he would have wanted to forget about her. She obviously couldn’t get away from him when it came to news. She would hear about his new fling and Nikki’s new gal pals.. And knew it wouldn’t last.. But when she had heard about Nikki’s new love, CeeJae knew she was the right one for him. She could tell he was the happiest he has ever been and the love in his eyes showed… He adored this woman and CeeJae was so happy for him. Tommy on the other hand wouldn’t settle down, not for long anyways..
She had picked up the phone to call Nikki and tell him how happy she was for him but never followed through… She just didn’t want to upset Nikki’s new found love and create a problem in anyway big or small. So she sent him a card but never heard back from him…maybe that is how Tommy found her. Who knows, if Tommy is determined and has his mind set he will not stop…
Soon her peace was once again interrupted by the ringing of the phone. So she got up to answer it and brought the phone back out to the terrace.
“Hello.”
“Well you sound a little better. Are you ok?”
‘Yeah I’m fine. Tommy, why do you want to do this?”
“Because I want; no more like need closure Ceege. You never gave me that. You just left me.. Without a word just a letter I find after I get home. I just want to see you and talk. Is that so bad? Don’t you think I deserve that much?”
She sighed heavily.. “Why now? I mean why couldn’t you have done this before now though?”
“I don’t know, my heart was shattered babe, I was lost and in some ways I still am. I just need this. Please.”
CeeJae sat there for a moment contemplating her answer…
“Fine.” She said softly, as if she had hoped he wouldn’t hear her.
“Really? Great. Umm when?”
“As soon as possible so I can get on with my life without all this craziness.”
“Well umm.. How about tonight?”
Her heart began to pound. His words shocked her. “There is no way he could be here in New York.” She thought to herself.
“What did you say?”
“I said how about tonight? We can meet for dinner or something. I am in New York Ceege. The concert is in a few days and instead of riding the bus I flew out.”
“I wasn’t prepared for tonight. Do you think going out is a good idea? I don’t want to deal with cameras and groupies and interruptions. Are you?”
“Then why don’t I just come to your place and we can have dinner there. I will cook for you…unless you have other plans.”
“No I uh… I don’t have plans…”
“Good then I am on my way.. I will see you in about an hour.” And with that he hung up.
“SHIT! Shit shit shit shit!” She repeated over and over as she quickly ran around her apartment to straighten up and then to go wash her face and change clothes.
“Nothing fancy or misleading..” she thought as she went to her closet. She grabbed a pair of skinny leg light blue jeans and a white t-shirt. Looking herself over in the mirror, she decided she looked fine. Besides he has seen her at her worst.
CeeJae then refilled her glass and went out to smoke. Her nerves were not too bad but bad enough. Her stomach was in knots, “The wine should help. If not I will just take my little friend called Valium.” She thought to herself. She hasn’t had to take a pill in so long, they just sat in her medicine cabinet collecting dust for 3 months. Her job was getting easier after the talk she had with her boss and with the bands she was working with at the time. They were punk kids who thought the world owed them something and whined about shit that wasn’t important. If it wasn’t the band it was the girlfriends and the drama. CeeJae had finally had enough and let it all out and told them the law and her lines and where she drew them. Since then things have gone much smoother.
The doorbell made her jump a little, she didn’t think an hour had passed already. She looked at the clock on her cable box, not quite an hour. She opened the door to a delivery man standing there with a huge amount of Chinese food. CeeJae smiled and shook her head.
“I think I am at the right place, are you CeeJae?” He asked as he read the little paper in his hand.
“Yes I am, what do I owe you?” She almost laughed.
“Oh nothing ma’am its all taken care of even my tip. The man was very generous.” He smiled as she took the bags after signing the delivery receipt.
“Ok then well thank you and have a good night.” She smiled and closed the door.
“Oh wait until he gets here.” She thought to herself. As she unloaded the bags and got out two place settings on the table. As she finished putting the glasses on the table the doorbell rang.
CeeJaes heart was pounding now, her butterflies and knots were returning. She took a big breathe and let it out and drank the rest of the wine in her glass and went to the door.

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae took a deep breath and let it out and opened the door. For a moment she stopped breathing, when her eyes met his.
“Hi”.. he said smiling standing there leaning his hand on the door frame.
“H..Hi.” She managed to speak. Her heart started pounding in her chest. He was still as beautiful as the first time she had met him.
“Can I come in?”
“Oh yeah sure, I uh put the dinner on the table.” She said as she welcomed him into her apartment. As she closed the door she tried hard to compose herself.
“Would you like a glass of wine?” she asked as she poured herself a glass.
“Yeah sure.” He noticed the small glass table with two chairs and sat down.
CeeJae poured his glass and brought both over and sat down across from him as Tommy began to put food on his plate. She noticed as she handed him his glass that he had taken the liberty to fill her plate as well. Sesame Chicken, white rice and broccoli; it was her favorite Chinese food. She smiled at him as he took his glass.
“This is a really nice place Ceege.”
“Thanks I like it.” She took a bite of food and looked up at him. He did the same. There was something in the air between them; it was as if you could cut through it with a knife.
Every time she looked up from her plate he did the same, their eyes meeting and her heart would pound once more.
“Ok how did you find me Tommy?” She had to break this thing between them before they both made a mistake.
“Wow you aren’t pulling any punches are you?” He laughed as he wiped his mouth with his napkin and took a gulp of his wine.
“I can’t afford to now a days.” She smirked and raised her glass to him and sipped it.
“Well if you want to know, I found you through your job.”
“You found me through my job?”
“Yeah, I mean come on Ceege, music industry is not that hard to find people and when you help out bands the way you do, you have a reputation as a no bullshit woman to work with.” He smiled and got up and filled his glass with more wine.
CeeJaes mind was all over the place with thoughts and ideas, she didn’t know what to say or think at that moment. ‘I am such an idiot’ she thought to herself and shook her head.
“What?” he asked.
CeeJae walked over to her coffee table and grabbed her cigarettes and went outside to her terrace and sat down. Tommy was soon out there as well and sat in the chair next to her.
“Talk to me babe.” He tried to reach for her hand.
CeeJae lifted her hand, “Please don’t call me that.” She said trying to hide that lump in her throat.
“Sorry. I can’t help it. Just talk to me. Explain to me what happened.”
She sat there staring out at the stars; dreading this moment.
“You want to know what I am thinking.” A tear trickled down her cheek.
“I am thinking that this is the moment I never wanted to happen. I dreaded this. I tried very hard to prevent this from happening and like a fucking idiot, I never thought about what I do for a living would be how you would find me.” Another tear escaped from her fight as she took a long drag from her cigarette.
“Listen, I don’t understand what this is CeeJae, You left me for Christ sakes! What the fuck?” He stood up in front of CeeJae who was still sitting trying not to look into his face.
He then knelt down to her and with a gentle touch he lifted her face to up to his. Their eyes locked as tears streamed down her face. She tried to turn her head but he wouldn’t let her.
“Tell me what happened babe. Why?” He took her hand in his. She was now not able to fight it. She cried.
“I am so sorry. Sorry I hurt you. I am sorry I left the way I did. I couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t be there the way you wanted me to. The things I have done and said not only to you… I couldn’t do it anymore Tommy.” She looked into his face, tears filled his eyes but he was so much better at fighting them back. He reached out and put her face in his hands and wiped away the tears streaming down her cheeks to her chin. He then laid his head in her lap the way he used to when he didn’t want her to see him cry.
“I know about you and Nikki and how you felt. He told me.”
CeeJae cried even harder hiding her face in her hands. “Then why did you come here; to make me feel even worse? I am a shitty person Tommy. You can do better; I fucked up everyone’s lives. Doc was right.”
Tommy then lifted his head and pulled her hands from her face, “He was wrong Ceege, he was all wrong. He involved himself in shit he had no business to! He is regretting this now. Nikki and I made damn fucking sure of that. He is gone Ceege. He came clean with everything and we fired him.”
“It still doesn’t change anything Tommy, I am just wrong for you. If I had never met Vince, none of this would have ever happened!”
“I am glad you met him Ceege. If you hadn’t I never would have known what it is like to have love. You make my heart pound and looking into your eyes almost takes my breath away.” He caressed her cheek and wiped another trail of tears.
CeeJae stood up before Tommy could lean in and try to kiss her, “I left you because I wasn’t ready to marry you Tommy.” She wiped the tears from her face. “You kept pushing me and I gave in; but I wasn’t ready, my heart wasn’t completely in it.”
He stood up and went to her and looked into her face, “I know and I am sorry for that. I blame me for that and so does Nikki.”
“Nikki? Why?”
“He feels like it was partly his fault too with what happened with you two.”
“This is not his fault. The fault is mine for giving in and not being true to you and myself. I don’t want to get married Tommy. I am not ready, I don’t know if I ever will be. That’s why you need to find someone you can marry and have a life with and have kids with.”
CeeJae went to walk back inside as Tommy reached for her arm and pulled her back and held her in his arms. CeeJae froze as he wrapped his arms around her and held her close to him. She could smell him and the scent was intoxicating to her, she then wrapped her arms around his waist and cried once more. With each sob she let out Tommy just held her close and kissed her head and whispered to her “Its ok baby, its going to be ok. Let it out.”
After what seemed like hours to CeeJae but in reality was only moments, she pulled away and lit up another cigarette and finished her glass of wine. Tommy took her glass and went inside and returned with a glass full for her and him. He handed her the glass, her hand still a little shaky from all the crying she took it and gulped down half of it and looked out at the stars.
“It is beautiful out here. The stars are so clear and bright.” Tommy said as he took a sip of his wine.
“Its one of the reasons I took this place.”
He then put his arm around her and they looked out at the stars until she finished her cigarette and decided to go inside.
As she set her glass on the coffee table and headed for the table to clean up Tommy grabbed her arm and pulled her to him and leaned in and kissed her gently. CeeJae’s heart pounded and she couldn’t breathe for a second. She back away slowly and went back towards the table and started clearing the table with his help.
After they silently finished clearing the table, Tommy broke that silence, “I still love you CeeJae.”
She turned to him, “How? I mean why?”
Tommy stepped towards her, “I do babe, I love you because I do. You are in my heart and my head; I tried not to believe me. But I can’t, you are my soul, you’re in here.” He took her hand and placed it on is heart. He then leaned in and kissed her again and she kissed him back. She then wrapped her arms around him and hid her face in his chest and sighed heavily. He just held her tight to him never wanting to let her go.
“I don’t know if this is right.” She said softly.
“I do. It feels right with you baby. No one else can make me feel this way. You have my heart babe. You always have and will.”
“I don’t think I can do this again. I can’t pick up and move again. I have a life here and I don’t want to leave it. And You have a life in California…” He then kissed her in mid sentence… “Shhh… we can work it out Ceege. Just let this, tonight happen. I am here for 3 days if you want me to stay.”

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae slowly nodded and let him hold her for a moment before she went to the couch to sit down. “A lot has changed Tommy; with you and with me.”
He knelt down in front of her and placed his finger on her lips, “shhh…” And he leaned in and kissed her passionately. CeeJae didn’t fight him, she had no more fight left in her and wrapped her legs around his waist and ran her fingers through his hair as she leaned back on the couch with him almost on top of her.
‘God he smells so good.’ She thought to herself as she inhaled his familiar scent. Jus then she felt his hand under her shirt and it made her gasp a little. She pulled his button up shirt up and ran her hands along his bare skin as he kissed her neck.
“I miss this…” she whispered.
He sat up and looked into her eyes and ripped his shirt open and took it off, her hands reached out and touched his chest. Her eyes explored his body, taking in every tattoo he had and then she grabbed him and brought him back to her lips.
“Maybe we should take this to the bedroom.” She whispered as he kissed her shoulders and neck.
“Mmmm” he moaned and quickly picked her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist.
“Which way to your room?”
“Its door just off of the breakfast bar; near the fireplace.” She leaned in as he held her and carried her to the bedroom and kissed his neck.
With ease he had the door opened and found the bed and they fell onto it, him on top of her grinding himself between her legs. She let out a moan.
He then pulled her up and pulled her shirt off, she then reached for his belt and his button on his jeans.. with a little help she managed remove them and then as he stood there she kissed his stomach. Tommy let out a soft moan as she worked her way down and gently grabbed his hard member and then took him into her mouth.
“Oh god..” He gasp as he ran his fingers through her hair and grabbed a handful lightly. “Yeah.. god babe you are so good.. mmm” he closed his eyes and leaned his head back as she slowly took in every inch in her mouth and down her throat. Slowly she backed off, she hadn’t done that in so long.
Tommy then laid her back down and unbuttoned her jeans and pulled them off her with no effort and began to kiss her thighs as his hands caressed her body. As he got closer to her inner thigh she let out a soft moan, “I missed you so much.”
Tommy then licked her inner thigh up into her hot spot…”Uh! OH God..” She asps loudly as he licked her slit and began to work his magic, making her moan even louder as he nibbled on her clit.. “Oh god.. Yeah.. mmm.. oh..” he knew she was close and he couldn’t help himself.. he then slid his tongue inside of her and with that she came… he could taste her sweetness .. And then kissed his way up her body and to her neck and then looked into her eyes as he slowly slid himself inside her. He wanted to see her face, her eyes… everything he had missed about her and about making love to her. Her eyes locked onto his, she let out a moan.. And she dug her nails into his sides slightly and then wrapped her legs around him.
“Oh god babe you feel so good.” He whispered.
“Mmm yeah..Noone makes me feel the way you do…mmmmmmm.. ahhhh.. yeah…you feel so good inside me Tommy.”
After what seemed like hours of making love, they just laid there, CeeJae wrapped in his arms as her head rested on his chest.
“Should I get ready to leave?” he asked.
CeeJae just wrapped her arm around him and pulled him closer to her.
“I take that as a no then.” He slightly chuckled.
“I don’t know…” she whispered and then got up and put on her robe and went out of the bedroom to grab a cigarette and went out to the patio.
Soon Tommy was out there with her with his jeans on all undone and grabbed a cigarette as well and sat down.
“You don’t know? Tell me you didn’t feel the way I did. That you didn’t miss this; Miss waking up to each other.”
“I am not saying that…I am saying I don’t know if this is...well I don’t know what this is for us. I don’t want to know right now.. Like you said; let it be what it is…for now.”
“What do you mean for now?”
CeeJae stood up as she put out her cigarette and leaned down to him as he sat there and kissed him.. “I mean shut up and don’t ruin this.” She smiled. She didn’t want to go over this again. Not now; not after making love. He smiled at her and stood up and grabbed her hand as they walked back into the apartment and she led him back into the bedroom.
“I don’t want you to leave.. Stay with me.” She pulled him to her and looked up into his eyes and softly touched his face.
He leaned into her touch and kissed her hand, “You don’t have to ask me twice baby.”
She then disrobed and climbed in bed with Tommy following her lead he then lay behind her spooning her and wrapping his arms around her pulling her close to him. She then wrapped her arm on his and held his hand.
“I love you baby.” He whispered into her ear.
“I never stopped.” She softly whispered and fell fast asleep.

[HollywoodVampirella]

As the sun came up and shined through her bedroom window, CeeJae slowly opened her eyes and realized that last night was not a dream. The dream she had many times was now a reality. She slowly moved and gently removed his arms from her waist and got out of bed trying not to wake him.
Then put her robe on quietly closed her bedroom door as she went out to the living room. She grabbed a glass of juice and her cigarettes and went out to the terrace to smoke. She sat down looking out at the mountains and the sky wondering why she let this happen.
Suddenly her phone began to ring, “Shit!” She said as she jumped up and grabbed it from the table.
“Hello?”
“Hi CeeJae this is Terry…”
“Oh god Terry I am so sorry I didn’t call you back. Did I miss the guys play?”
“Oh no its still tonight. Are you coming?”
“Well ... yeah why not. I need two though, One for me and a date.”
“No problem CeeJae, we have you down for two tickets for tonight’s show. The guys will be happy to hear you will be there.”
“Thanks Terry. I have to get going now. I will be there tonight. Bye.”
“where you going tonight?” His voice startled her.
“Oh! Your awake. Sorry I tried to get to the phone before it woke you.”
“Its ok babe, whats going on?” He walked towards her and kissed her forehead like he used to.
“Well I thought you and I could see a band called Victorious Aces.. or VA for short tonight.” She watched him as he went to the fridge and grabbed some juice.
“Well, if you want me to go then I will.” He smiled.
“I would like you to unless you don’t want to.”
“Ceege, if you want me there then I will go. I just hope that me being there wont take away from the band.”
“I don’t think it will. Besides noone knows your going anyways. And by the time they find out we can leave.” She walked towards him and kissed him and went towards her room.
“Where you going?”
“I need a shower. I have a few things to do. You wanna join me?” She smiled.
“I got a few calls to make can I take a rain check?”
“I guess so.. “She playfully sighed and went in to her bathroom and started the shower to warm the water and got undressed.

Tommy grabbed his cell phone and went out to the terrace and dialed his phone.
“Hey dude. Whats up!” He smiled.
“TBone? Where thefuck are you?”
“I am in New York bro. where else would I be?”
“Did you find her?”
“Yeah I did.”
“Well you get shit straight? Are you good now?”
“Yeah man…I am better then good. I am awesome.”
“Are you fucking kidding me? Are you telling me that you and her are back together?”
“I dunno bro. We have alot of work to do on this but yeah I think we man. And Last night was just fucking the best. Ya know?”
“Tommy, just don’t get all wrapped up in her again too soon. I don’t want to have to pick you up again after this.”
“Nikki man, I am fine. We are fine. When are you guys gonna be here?”
“We should pull in about 3 in the morning; why?”
“Because I thought we could all get together?”
“I dunno, we will see what happens ok?”
“Alright, well talk to you later man.”

Tommy still wasn’t sure where this was going to go but he knew he wanted her and he followed his heart. This time it led him back to her. He just hoped that this time she didn’t break it again…

CeeJae got out of the shower and looked at herself in the mirror, ‘why did I do this?’ she asked herself. ‘how can this work? He is so far from New York and I cant leave.’ All these thoughts ran through her mind as she brushed her hair.
“Hey babe?” he yelled to her.
“Yeah?”
“Are you ok in there?”
“Yeah I’m fine.”
She turned and then saw him standing in the doorway. “Jesus you scared me.”
He smiled, “Well I didn’t mean to I just wanted to look at you. Do you know how beautiful you are?”
“Yeah ok whatever.” She laughed.
He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her and they looked at each other in the mirror. “Your beautiful baby.”
“If you say so.”
“We can make this work ya know.”
“Maybe…” her smile now faded.
“It will. It has to.” He kissed her shoulders…”Hey the guys will here around 3 in the morning you wanna go see them tomorrow afternoon?”
Her heart pounded..this was not what she was expecting..
“What?”he asked.
“I just didn’t expect to see them or you for that matter. I don’t know how the reunion would be Tommy. I mean I hurt a lot of people and I don’t know if it’s a good idea.”
“Relax, is all past.. Leave it there. You and I are all that matters babe.” He kissed her head. “I have to go back to my hotel quick and get my stuff and I will be back ok?”
She nodded as he kissed her and quickly left.
“FUCK!” she yelled out loud. She did not want to face them; especially Nikki.Yeah he had someone in his life now, but she left and hurt him too. Maybe not like Tommy but it damaged their friendship and closeness they had. CeeJae wasn’t sure if she could do the reunion Tommy wanted so badly.
“I cant do this..” she whispered and got dressed. “I just can’t do this. I don’t want to do this..” She whined and plopped on the couch and put her face in her hands.

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae got up and grabbed her cigarettes and phone and went out to the terrace She sat down , lit up and slowly dialed. As it rang she took a deep breath…
“Hey babe. You miss me already?”
“Hey…Well.. Tommy.. Listen…I was thinking; if you don’t want to go tonight its ok.”
“What? No, I am fine. Do you still want to go?”
“Well I kind of need to.”
“Then I'll go with you. Is there something else? Are you ok?”
“Oh I’m fine. I just didn’t want to make you go someplace you didn’t want to go.”
“Babe, it’s cool. I'm fine.”
“ok.. “
“Well listen I am going to go take a shower and grab my stuff and I'll be back in a little bit.”
“Ok. I have to go out but I will leave the key on the top of the door frame.”
“Oh shit I forgot about that. Ok see you in a bit. I love you Ceege.”
“I love you too.”
CeeJae hung up the phone and slammed it on the table; “I am such a fucking coward.” She thought to herself. “I can’t even get the courage to tell him I don’t want to see the guys.”
She made her way back into her apartment and finished getting ready to head out into town and to the office to pick up a few things.
As she made her way to her car she stopped, “What the fuck am I doing? I can’t do this.”
As she turned around to go back and was alarmed by the figure of a man standing near by.
“Hey Ceege, you ok?”
It was Jay, she knew his voice and the closer he got the more she could make out, his long shoulder length hair that seem to flow with each step.
“Oh, hey Jay. Yeah I am fine; I just have a lot on my mind.”
“Are you heading out?”
“I was, but I changed my mind.”
“Feel like company?”
“Sure why not. You can tell me how your adventure went last night when you went out.” CeeJae smirked up at him.
“Sure and you can tell me about yours.” He laughed and put his arm around her shoulders and they walked into the elevator together.
With a heavy sigh she began to tell Jay everything that happened and ended it at the opening of her apartment door.
Jay was a little taken back by the whole story; “Wow.. Ceege, I don’t know what to say. I mean he just pops back into your life like this. Are you ok with this?”
“No Jay, I can honestly say I am not comfortable with the whole thing. I don’t know why I can’t tell him I don’t want to see the guys. I … ugh.. I don’t know..” She opened up her terrace door and went out to smoke as Jay followed. She was trying to hide that lump in her throat, fighting off the tears. Jay noticed and went to her and hugged her.
“Ceege, hun, you got to be straight with him. Don’t do this to yourself again; you cant. It fucked with your head bad last time.After what you have told me hun, you need to tell him everything and how you feel.”
“I know... I know. Jay, I still love him but I ...” she began to cry into his chest as he held her tighter.

Unbeknownst to Jay and CeeJae; Tommy had quietly entered the apartment and overheard some of the conversation. He was contemplating on what to do, when Ceejae went to walk back in and saw him standing there.

[HollywoodVampirella]

“Hey” She was surprised to see him standing there…
“Hey.” He replied very short as he stared down Jay who was standing behind CeeJae.
“Hey man what’s up.” Jay reached out to shake Tommy’s hand, “CeeJae has talked about you so much. It’s great to finally meet you in person.”
“Yeah uh thanks…Bro do you think you could give us a little bit.” Tommy said cautiously as he looked over at CeeJae.
“Oh. Yeah; no problem man. I will just uh.. Head out. Ceege, call me later?”
CeeJae nodded as she watched Jay leave and quietly shut the door.
“So uh.. what’s up Ceege. Why can’t you talk to me?”
“I.. Tommy, I tired to tell you. I don’t know if I am ready for all of this. I don’t think I want to see the rest of the guys.” She went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water out of the refrigerator.
“What do you mean? Who is this guy? What’s going on?” She could hear a small bit of jealousy in his tone.
“What? Jay is my friend. A very good friend Tommy. He was there for me when I needed a friend and someone to talk to.”
“Did you sleep with him?” Tommy stepped closer to her and looked into her eyes.
She could smell his soap from his shower. His hair still wet and a hint of his cologne intoxicated her senses. She still struggled to figure out how to answer his question.
“You did, didn’t you?” His hand rested on the breakfast bar to almost keep her from walking away from him.
“Tommy; what do you want from me? Yes I did. But he is more a friend to me then anything else. I didn’t want anything else more with him.”
“But he does.” He looked away from her for a second and took a deep breath through his nose trying to control his emotions.
“I don’t know, yeah I guess. But he knows about you and that it couldn’t go anywhere and where I am now.”
“Look Ceege, seeing you in his arms when I walked in; I felt like I was dieing. It killed me. I know now, that I need you babe. You still have me, my heart. I cant be without you.”
“Tommy, wait… We talked about this.. I am not moving.. I cant and well, I don’t know.. I just don’t want to do this again. I don’t even know what this is for me. How would this even work for us? Seriously Tommy; how is this going to work?” The tears welled up in her eyes as she looked into his face, she could tell her words hurt him.
“What do you want me to say Ceege? What do you want me to do? Just tell me what it will take for us. I know with the tour its hard, but we can get it right this time, just let it babe.” He took her hand and interlaces his fingers with hers and pulled her closer to him and kissed her softly as he cupped her face in his hand and gently caressed her cheek and chin with his thumb.
Just then Tommy’s phone rang in his pocket, “Hello?”
“Oh hey, uh, yeah… Well I am in the middle of something right now… Yeah…No.. I can’t…uh huh… I know but I cant…No…Yes.. Yeah I am…I told you before no. Yes I do… Look I got to go… I am sorry…I am. No… no we cant.. I told you that before. Yes…Yeah I am I just told you this…”
As this went on CeeJae heard the faint voice of another woman on the other end of the phone and she walked out to smoke as his call went on.
“Hmmm another woman huh…” she thought to herself. What was going on there she wondered. Did this girl know about her? And where he is and who he is with? Who was she?
“Hey sorry about that.” He put his phone back in his pocket and leaned up against the railing of the balcony as CeeJae smoked her cigarette.
“So who is she?” CeeJae asked.
“Someone I was with a while back…She just doesn’t understand that I cant be with her the way she wants me to.”
CeeJae chuckled slightly, “Hmm sounds familiar. So did you sleep with her?” she smirked.
“Oh come on its totally different Ceege, I don’t see her anymore and I try very hard not to talk to her.”
“When did you break it off Tommy?”
“About 3 months ago, but we were not really together. We just had fun and she , well she was there.”
“Uh huh.. And yet here you are talking to me about Jay? It’s kind of fucked up if you ask me.”
“Yeah but there is no chance for her and I. There still could be for you and Jay.”
“How do you figure that Tommy? How? You don’t even know him.. He is a great friend to me and knows the line and doesn’t cross it. Don’t you dare tell me that he and I have a chance! You don’t know what I have been through either ya know!”
“Babe, ok.. Calm down.. I am sorry. Lets just forget it.. I made a mistake and I misunderstood something. I am sorry.” He went to take her hand and she pulled away from him.
“What? Don’t pull away from me babe.. Please…I said I was sorry.”
CeeJae looked into his brown eyes and shook her head and hugged him. “I don’t know where this is going to go and it scares me.”
“Me too babe. We just have to see where it goes. Let’s not make promises we cant keep.”
CeeJae pulled away and looked up into his face, “What do you mean?”
“I mean, well, lets just take it one step at a time and see where it goes and not rush things. Maybe that’s what went wrong before.”
“Well it was a huge part.” She walked past Tommy and went back out on the balcony to smoke when she heard his cell phone ring again.

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae smoked another cigarette as she listened to Tommy talking on his cell phone.
“Hey listen; I don’t know what’s going on.”
“I know but I don’t think it’s a good idea. She isn’t too sure either. Yeah right she wont go for that,.” He chuckled and then walked out on the balcony; “Hold on.” Tommy held out the phone to her.
CeeJae was totally not expecting this and hesitantly took the phone, “Hello?”
“What’s up?”
Her heart started to beat a little faster; she knew that voice, “Hey, not much. How are you?” Small talk was good.. she thought.
“I’m good. Why don’t you want to see us?” The inevitable came up.
CeeJae looked at Tommy, he shrugged apologetically, “Its not that, Its just I don’t know if it’s a good idea after everything.”
“Look it’s done and over, past, we all have moved on Ceege.”
“So I have seen and read.”
“So…what’s up?”
“Nikki, I don’t know. I don’t know if it’s a good idea. I really don’t want to be slammed with cameras in my face like before and I don’t like my life all over the pages of tabloids and shit.”
Nikki snickered, “Yeah like we do, please, CeeJae get over it and come hang out with us.”
Just like that she knew she couldn’t win and sighed, “Fine but I can’t stay long I have a life ya know.”
“Ok fine see ya tomorrow.” He laughed and CeeJae handed Tommy the phone and went back inside as Tommy continued talking.
CeeJae frustrated, went into the kitchen and grabbed her bottle of Vodka out of her freezer and grabbed the orange juice and made herself a very strong Screwdriver. The first one went down a little hard but that second one was smooth. As she was halfway finished with her second glass Tommy came in, “you ok?” He gave her a kiss on her cheek.
“Oh yeah I am just fine.” She looked him in the eyes.
“I am sorry babe, he wanted to talk to you. I thought it would help.”
“Well it did, but I don’t know if it is still a good idea.”
“What’s not good about it? You get to meet Nikki’s girl and Vince has a a great girl and you already know Mick and Lissa are good.”
“I know… Ugh, lets just get ready to eat and for the show. We have to show up early before everyone else.”
“Ok..” Tommy put his arms around her waist and kissed her neck from behind, “MMM you smell good.” His warm breath on her neck stirred up something inside her and goose bumps on her body.
“We don’t have time for this..” She gasped as he continued to kiss her neck and shoulder.. Her breathing got heavy and she reached up and ran her fingers through Tommy’s hair.
“Think we can make time?” He whispered…
CeeJae turned around to face him and kissed his lips passionately and jumped up and wrapped her legs around his waist and grinded him as hard as she could with clothes on and softly moaned. Tommy broke from the kiss; “I am taking that as a yes.” And went to carry her to the bedroom when she stopped him..
“No.. right here..” she looked over to the kitchen counter…” Tommy smiled and quickly sat her on the counter as she removed his shirt and hers.. He kissed her throat and then her shoulders as CeeJae moaned and tried unbuckling his belt and removing his jeans. She knew he didn’t wear underwear if he didn’t have to and knew this was one of those didn’t have to times. With a little help from CeeJae he removed her pants and her panties and she was pulling him towards her and grinding him and rubbing against him, he tried to tease her and prolong but she was fighting him all the way…
“Oh yeah, I want you inside me baby, I want you now. Oh god fuck me..”
That was all he could stand, he held back no longer and with the first thrust CeeJae let out a loud gasping moan as if this was the release, the moment of release but he knew better.. Her nails were digging into him grabbing a hold of him to pull him to her as she wiggled and writhed with each kiss and thrust from Tommy. He loved watching her, hearing her gasps and moans and listening to her; it drove him wild with passion. He knew hey didn’t have a lot of time but he could watch her and make love to her all day if that’s what she wanted. Then she did something that drove him over the edge, she opened her eyes and looked into his as he slowly pushed himself deep inside of her…”Oh baby, this feels so good.. Oh yeah.. Oh I love you so much…” that did it for him, he was about to explode and just as he was… CeeJae dug her nails in deep and was exploding herself…
At that moment CeeJae forgot everything, except the man in front of her, who was inside of her and rocking her world. She thought of nothing but the heat of passion and how she missed this and him and how much she loved him still…

[HollywoodVampirella]

After a long shower with Tommy, CeeJae was getting dressed as Tommy was still in the shower. She new there wasn’t enough time for a round two even though the thought had crossed her mind. She grabbed a pair of faded straight leg Levis and a black tank top with a skull and cross bones on the front and her black Harley Boots. This was the only time she was able to show her tattoo on her bicep. She loved it, tribal ivy vine wrapping around her arm. Her make up was as good as it was going to get and her hair was still a little wet but it was fine. She took one last look at herself in the full length mirror as Tommy walked out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist.
“Hey babe what time do we have to be at this club?” He grabbed his jeans and a black button up shirt and a white tank top.
She looked over at the clock, “Well in about 2 hours less; preferably less.” She smiled.
“So I guess I need to get moving.” He smiled back walking towards her.
CeeJae stepped back and held out her hand, “Yes you do!” She laughed.
“Hey can’t blame a guy for trying.” He walked back into the bathroom.
CeeJae shook her head and walked out to the kitchen to grab a glass and made herself a Screwdriver and grabbed a smoke and went out to the balcony. She heard her phone ring, but didn’t want to answer it, why ruin her moment with some bullshit. She let the machine get it…
“Hey CeeJae, it’s Jay. I was wondering if you were going to the club tonight. Well.. Uhh… if so I guess I will see you there. Ok… later. Hope everything is ok.”
Tommy walked out as Jay talked into the machine; CeeJae caught a glimpse of him thought the sheer curtains flowing in the breeze.
“So he is going too?”
“Yeah I guess so. Why? Is that a problem?”
“No, just didn’t know he was going.”
“I didn’t either until now. Oh don’t worry you are the one I am with.” CeeJae smiled and kissed him. Tommy wrapped his arms around her.
“Yeah? For as long as you want me babe.” He looked into her eyes and winked.
“You are a smart ass.” She laughed and headed back inside.
“Yeah but you love me anyways.”
“Yeah I do.” She laughed and grabbed her purse and keys as Tommy grabbed his sunglasses and jacket. On the way to the club CeeJae wondered just how long this would las t with Tommy. Is she making another mistake? What was is going to be like seeing the guys again… How could she really look into Nikki’s eyes again and not think about those nights and moments with him…
“Babe? Hello.” Tommy took her hand..
“Huh? Oh. What’s up?”
“You ok? What’s wrong?”
“I’m fine. Nothing is wrong Tommy.” She smiled to hide what she really felt…fear, concern, and pain.
“Are you sure?” He ran his fingers lightly along her hand and fingers.
“Yes, I am sure babe.” She smiled bigger and glanced over to see his face.
“Well you seemed like you have something on your mind. What’s up?” He kisses her hand.
“Nothing Tommy.. Nothing is wrong. I was just thinking about today and you.” She hoped that he would believe her and that what she had just said would make him stop probing her.
“Ahhh… well ya know.. We could just skip the show and go back to your place..” he smiled and leaned over to her and nibbled on her neck and then licked her neck.
“Ugh.. Don’t do that! Hello I am driving and you don’t distract the driver..” she giggled; “And besides I cant skip the show I have to be there for those guys. I busted my ass for them and they need to know I still support them.”
“I know.. I know.. just an idea babe.” He smiled as CeeJae pulled up near the club and into the parking lot next to it, she grabbed the parking ticket and pulled not the first empty spot she found.
She looked over to Tommy as he looked at her with the smile she loved; it made her melt every time. She couldn’t help but smile back. “What?” she asked.
“Nothing.. You’re just so beautiful.” He smiled and touched her face and leaned in and kissed her.
“I love you too.” She smiled as she grabbed her wallet and her keys and shoved her purse under her seat and got out of the car. They quickly ran over to the door and ducked inside after dealing with the door man and trying not to get noticed. Unfortunately the doorman was excited to meet Tommy Lee.. Soon after a few others coming to the door realized who he was as well..
As soon as they got in the door they went upstairs to the upper level of the club where a table was reserved for CeeJae and a guest.
“Wow, this is a nice place.” Tommy smiled as he stood up and looked below at the club filling up fast.
“Yeah it is.. I am just glad that we are up here. I do not want to deal with all those people and the cameras.” CeeJae smiled watching Tommy look around and wave to some people who noticed him above. She had a feeling that this may have been a mistake and it will be a short stay. She didn’t want to deal with this shit anymore. She was done with it, and finally had her life back. She stopped answering calls from reporters for a long time now. She was able to avoid the requests for interviews.. She knew how it would have been. Why did you leave, what happened with you and Nikki.. Did you.. She couldn’t and didn’t want to handle the questions they would have asked and still cant.
Soon she saw Jay and his date come up the stairs smiling and waving. They were stopped at the top steps and he pointed to her, CeeJae waved back and nodded and the guard let them through. Tommy noticed and sat closer to CeeJae.
“Hey thanks. I like it better up here. It’s too crowded down there.” Jay nodded to Tommy as he and his date sat across from them.
“No problem. I know how you feel. I thought we would have been able to get in unnoticed and quickly but no chance.” CeeJae smiled as Tommy put his arm around her.
“Hey I cant help it babe. I wasn’t trying to get noticed by any means. I just wanted to spend time with you.” He kissed her cheek as the waitress with a huge smile came over eyeing Tommy with her tray in hand.
“Oh my god.. it is so awesome to meet you! I love Motley Crue! You are my favorite drummer! Can you sign this for me?” She handed him a notepad.
Tommy smiled , “Sure if it will get me and my baby and our friends a drink.” He signed her book and was trying to be nice but really didn’t want to ruin his time with CeeJae.
“Oh my god, I am so sorry.. Yes what can I get you guys.” She smiled and took everyone’s drink order but as CeeJae ordered her drink, the waitress recognized who she was as well; “Oh god, you’re CeeJae! Oh my god, I am so sorry to interrupt you guys. This is so awesome to see you two back together! This is so great! I would love to get you your drink…” CeeJae politely smiled and told the girl she wanted a screwdriver with extra vodka.. “Wait make that two…” she called to her. The waitress nodded and went to fill that order.
“2 drinks? Are you ok babe? You going to be able to drive?” Tommy asked looking a little concerned.
“Oh yeah she will be fine I have seen her pound more then that and still get home safe with me following her.” Jay smiled as he put his arm around his date and CeeJae shot him a look as if to say shut up!
“Oh yeah?” Oh great there is that hint of jealousy in his voice CeeJae thought as Tommy looked at her.
“Yeah I will be fine babe. Don’t worry about it.” She smiled and put her hand on his leg and leaned in and kissed him still looking into his eyes to reassure him she was his…She had a feeling this was not going to be a good night……

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae sat in the passenger seat of her car as Tommy drove them back to her place…the two drinks turned into much more as the night went on.. Jay’s comments were innocent enough but Tommy’s hint of jealousy would come through. CeeJae had enough when she had noticed that Jay’s date was making eyes at Tommy while CeeJae spoke with the guys in the band… She downed her last drink when she returned to the table after seeing her laugh at something he said smiling at her and touching his arm as Jay was at the bar.
“Ok time to go.” CeeJae said as she slammed her empty drink on the table. Jay’s date startled slowly backed away from Tommy and the smile left her face.
“Ok babe but I think I should drive.” He said as he stood up.
“Fine..” she snapped and tossed him her keys, “ I just need to get the fuck outta here before I say or do something…” she glared at him and then her.
“What’s wrong Hun?” he touched her arm.. She slightly pulled away and continued to glare at Jay’s date as Jay returned to the table. “What’s up?” Jay gave his date her drink.
“Don’t know, but your friend seems to have a problem with me…” she looked at Jay..
“No I have a problem with my friends date flirting with my boyfriend in front of me and my boyfriend acting as if he never noticed!”
“Woah.. Ceege.. I think you’re over reacting…” Jay sat down next to his date…
“Oh? Ok. Well then fuck it if I am over reacting; Then let me over react a little more;” CeeJae’s voice got a little louder as she leaned in to the table towards her..
“If you ever pull that shit with me or with my friend again. I will kick your fucking ass!”

Before the girl could say a word Tommy grabbed CeeJaes hand and pulled her away; “Whoa babe. Calm down. Come on, let’s go home.” She said nothing and let him lead her out of the club and to the car. The whole ride she said nothing; trying to forget the events. After the silent ride in the elevator and to her apartment, Tommy finally spoke, “What happened tonight?”
With a heavy sigh and heading to the refrigerator she spoke as she grabbed the orange juice and the vodka and a glass she filled with ice. “Oh hell I don’t know. I guess maybe old habits die hard Tommy.” She poured the vodka and then the juice as Tommy walked over to her. “What’s that supposed to mean? And Do you really think that is going to help?” he referred to the drink in her hand.
“I am fine, and I am a big girl I think I can handle myself fine. I am not the one flirting with someone else’s date and letting her rub all over me.” Her snide remark took Tommy by surprise.
“What are you talking about? I was not flirting with her babe. She touched my arm that was it.” He tried not to laugh about her jealousy he knew how she would get if he did not try to take this seriously.

“I watched the two of you Tommy. If I wasn’t there you two would have fucked right there! I saw how you two were acting. Why don’t you just go back there and fuck her because you aren’t fuckin me tonight!”
“Are you fuckin’ kidding me with this shit? I never fucking touched her! I don’t give a fuck about her! I fucking love you damn it! And you don’t need anymore of this shit!” he grabbed the glass from her hand and threw it in the sink and grabbed his jacket and walked out the door.
CeeJae then grabbed her cigarettes and walked out onto her terrace and sat in her chair tears started falling fast as she lit up her cigarette. She didn’t know what was wrong with her; she was usually more level headed then this.
“Well I guess I fucked that up once again.” She thought to herself. “This time I guess I chased him off.” She laid back in the chair and propped her feet upon the other chair and just cried and closed her eyes until the drinks she downed had finally caught up with her and she passed out.
A few hours later Tommy returned and quietly made his way inside in hopes of not waking her. He noticed the terrace doors open and noticed her sitting there. He slowly walked out and saw that she had passed out. He shook his head and picked her up to carry her into bed. She instinctively wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned her head on him.
“I’m sorry baby. I was stupid.” She whined back.
“Shhhh. Its ok babe lets just get some sleep.” He laid her on the bed and undressed her and covered her up and got undressed himself and crawled into bed and held her close.

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae woke to the sun shining bright through the blinds and in her face. She groaned and slowly turned over and slowly reopened her eyes to see Tommy facing away from her. Suddenly the previous night’s event flashed through her mind. ‘oh god.’ She thought as she felt a slight hang over. She closed her eyes hoping to catch a few more moments of sleep and hoping he wouldn’t wake up at that moment…too late…
Tommy turned over and looked at her. “Hey.”
“Mmmm” she lightly moaned.
“How are you feeling?”
“Like shit” she whispered with her eyes closed.
“Well hey I am going to take a shower and get something to eat, you want something?”
“Oh god no.. I just want to sleep a little more.”
Tommy laughed a little “Ok, well you sleep a little we have some time before we head out.”
CeeJae forgot all about meeting up with the guys this morning, “Oh god that’s today? “
“Yeah it is.. Get some sleep I will wake you in a little bit to get up and shower and ready.” He kissed her lightly on her forehead and got out of bed and headed into the shower. As the shower started, CeeJae fell back to sleep dreading the rest of the day.


Soon after Tommy got out of the shower his cell phone was ringing. He quickly wrapped a towel around his waist and grabbed his phone before it woke CeeJae.
“Hello?”
“Hey Tbone!”
“Dude! Whats up.”
“Nothin’ just sitting here waiting on my girl.”
“What? Where are you?”
“At the airport. Her plane should be landing anytime now.”
“Whats all the noise?”
“It’s a bunch of fans. I am signing some autographs. Well hey you guys still comin right?”
“Yeah.. CeeJae is stll asleep she had a rough night.”
Nikki laughed, “Yeah I bet. You guys ever stop?”
“Naa man not like that she got fucked up lastnight and I had to drive home.”
“Oh shit! Everything cool?”
“Yeah.. its cool I will tell yu about it later dude.”
“Cool, well hey gotta go I think I see her coming..” Nikki hung up before Tommy could say anything else..
Tommy heard her stirring and looked over.. Seeing her all curled up under the blankets made him just want to crawl back in bed with her.. She made a small little moaning sound and he smiled and headed back to bed.
As he crawled back under the covers with her she just seemed to curled right into his. He loved the way she felt against him and the smell of her hair.. It was a turn on but more so it was just her.. he realized she is his other half.. the part of him that made him whole. At that moment all he wanted to do was hold her in his arms and lay there for as long as he could.
He closed his eyes and held her close.
“I thought you were taking a shower.” She whispered.
“I did” he spoke softly.
“Did I hear the phone ring?”
“Yeah it was nikki. Making sure we were still coming.”
“Mmmm” she pulled his arm around her more and held it to her chest.
“God I love this.”
“Me too.” She whispered and started to drift off again.
Tommy leaned in and kissed her softly and lay there until they both fell back asleep.

[HollywoodVampirella]

CeeJae woke to the sun shining bright through the blinds and in her face. She groaned and slowly turned over and slowly reopened her eyes to see Tommy facing away from her. Suddenly the previous night’s event flashed through her mind. ‘oh god.’ She thought as she felt a slight hang over. She closed her eyes hoping to catch a few more moments of sleep and hoping he wouldn’t wake up at that moment…too late…
Tommy turned over and looked at her. “Hey.”
“Mmmm” she lightly moaned.
“How are you feeling?”
“Like shit” she whispered with her eyes closed.
“Well hey I am going to take a shower and get something to eat, you want something?”
“Oh god no.. I just want to sleep a little more.”
Tommy laughed a little “Ok, well you sleep a little we have some time before we head out.”
CeeJae forgot all about meeting up with the guys this morning, “Oh god that’s today? “
“Yeah it is.. Get some sleep I will wake you in a little bit to get up and shower and ready.” He kissed her lightly on her forehead and got out of bed and headed into the shower. As the shower started, CeeJae fell back to sleep dreading the rest of the day.


Soon after Tommy got out of the shower his cell phone was ringing. He quickly wrapped a towel around his waist and grabbed his phone before it woke CeeJae.
“Hello?”
“T bone!”
“Dude! What’s up?”
“Nothing just sitting here waiting on my girl.”
“What? Where are you?”
“Sitting here in my hotel room while Steph is in the shower”
“Oh ok.. I was confused for a sec there.”
“Don’t take much..” Nikki joked.
“Whatever, Fuck you..” Tommy laughed and continued…“Yeah.. CeeJae is still asleep; she had a rough night.”
Nikki laughed, “Yeah I bet. You guys ever stop?”
“Naa man not like that she got fucked up last night and I had to drive home.”
“Oh shit! Is everything cool?”
“Yeah.. its cool I will tell you about it later dude.”
“Cool, well hey got to go she is out of the shower; Catch you guys later..” Nikki hung up before Tommy could say anything else..
Tommy heard her stirring and looked over.. Seeing her all curled up under the blankets made him just want to crawl back in bed with her.. She made a small little moaning sound and he smiled and headed back to bed.
As he crawled back under the covers with her body just seemed to curled right into his. He loved the way she felt against him and the smell of her hair.. It was a turn on but more so it was just her. He realized she is his other half; the part of him that made him whole. At that moment all he wanted to do was hold her in his arms and lay there for as long as he could.
He closed his eyes and held her close.
“I thought you were taking a shower.” She whispered.
“I did” he spoke softly.
“Did I hear the phone ring?”
“Yeah it was Nikki. Making sure we were still coming.”
“Mmmm” she pulled his arm around her more and held it to her chest.
“I love this.”
“Me too.” She whispered and started to drift off again.
Tommy leaned in and kissed her softly and lay there until they both fell back asleep.

CeeJae slowly opened her eyes to the sound of an alarm going off and she lightly nudged Tommy who still had her in his arms.
“Mmmm” He softly mumbled.
“Alarm baby” she whispered hoping her hang over had went away.
“Ok” He slowly let her go and reached for his cell to turn it off. “Baby we gotta get up and get ready.”
“I know.. I am going in the shower.” She slowly got out of be and made her way to the bathroom but wanting to badly to just lay in bed with him all day.
Tommy heard the shower and decided to get up and call Nikki and have a smoke on the balcony.

As the water hit her body she couldn’t help but think what Nikki ha told his girlfriend.. Did she know about their past? She wondered if he thought of her and how it would be to see him again.. She tried very hard to forget her feelings.. and everything but never could. She still had some feelings for him but knew it could never work…Her heart belonged to Tommy…But she still wondered about him. How could she not. She turned to let the water spray on her face to try and wash away the thoughts. Nikki was happy and with someone good from what she heard. She was happy for him.

[HollywoodVampirella]

Tommy dialed the phone and took a long drag off his cigarette.
“Hello?”
“Hey man it’s me, CeeJae is in the shower we will meet you in about an hour.”
“Alright cool. You guys ok?”
“Yeah, she is fine. We are cool. How’s Stephanie?”
“Eh; ya know, we are great.. But there some shit going on with Vince. Dude it’s a long story. You would not believe it.”
“Is it going to be ok? I mean can you talk now?”
“Naa. Don’t worry about it I will explain soon but just not today.. I am sure Vince is not going to start anything knowing Ceege is meeting up with us and with her and Steph will make him feel really uncomfortable.”
“Huh? What do you mean? What’s wrong with him and Stephanie?”
There was a long pause and a heavy sigh…
“Oh no. Are you telling me Vince and Stephanie had a thing too? Are you fucking kidding me dude?”
“Like I said man, it’s a long story.. And you will know later on. Let’s just have fun today okay?” say anything.”
“Yeah no problem.”
“Do me a favor, don’t tell CeeJae ok?”
“No problem. I won’t say a word to her.”
“Wont say a word to who?” CeeJae stood there dressed with a towel on her head lighting a cigarette.
“Oh hell Tommy.. “
“Its cool man I gotta go we will see you soon.” Tommy quickly hung up his cell phone.
“What cant you say a word about?” She asked once more.
“Don’t worry about it babe, its fine. Just something Nikki has going on and doesn’t want me to tell Stephanie.”
CeeJae watched his face and she knew there was more to it.
“Why don’t I believe you Tommy?”
“Aww come on baby its nothing for you to worry about.” He came up and wrapped his arms around her and kissed her. “Don’t you think you need to finish getting ready?” he smiled.
“Yeah I gotta finish putting on a face and brush out my hair.” She put out her smoke and went back into the bathroom.
As CeeJae was finishing her make, she couldn’t help but wonder what was up with Nikki and Tommy and why he couldn’t tell her. He’s never held things back from her before when they were together before. She wondered what it could be. Was Nikki going to ask this girl to marry him? Or did he cheat on her? What the hell was it? She finished brushing her hair and walked out to find Tommy sitting on the couch waiting for her.
“You look so damn good baby.” He smiled and stood up.
‘Thanks. I still want to know what’s going on with Nikki and why you cant tell me.”
Tommy kissed her forehead, “Like I said Ceege, its fine nothing for you to worry about.”
“Well if it comes out when I am there and its not good I want to know damn it.”
Tommy sighed and looked down at the floor shaking his head, “Ok fine but you need to keep quiet about this please.. Do not say anything.”
‘Fine, I won’t. Just tell me already.”
“Well, apparently Vince and Stephanie had a thing. Nikki found out. I don’t know the whole story yet so don’t go off.” He could see in her face she was not happy but then a look surprised him. “What’s wrong?”
CeeJae wondered why she knew that name and how she knew it… it all fit now. “Oh my god! I think know what it is!”
“Well damn it woman tell ME! I am lost.” CeeJae grabbed her car keys and tossed them to Tommy. “You drive and I will tell you what I THINK it is. I am not completely sure but I will tell ya in the car on the way.”
As they got into the parking lot CeeJae started telling Tommy of when she was with Vince; a subject Tommy was not to happy about but he tried not to let it show.
“Well anyways he told me about this girl he had a thing for before he came to California and well her name was Stephanie and that he still had feelings for her but it would not have worked. Do you remember when you guys would play some places near where he was from and some in Cali he would look like he was searching for someone he thought he saw? And we all thought he was crazy and then he would be quiet the rest of the night and I would have to make sure his drunken ass was in bed asleep safely/ I had my hands full.” Tommy listened silently and down shifted as she said that. CeeJae looked over to see he was not comfortable with her talking about her past with Vince.
“I’m sorry babe. But think of it this way, if it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t be here with you.”
“Yeah I know.. But I still don’t like to hear about him and you or anyone else you have been with Ceege.”
“Oh and I am supposed to be all happy to hear about your relationships?” she snapped back.
“Ok look I know, we cant fix the past.. Lets just forget that shit. So you think that Nikki’s Stephanie is the same chick?”
“Yeah maybe it is. I mean but I don’t understand why she never told Nikki.?”
“I don’t know; but Ceege you promised you wouldn’t say anything.”
“I know and I won’t. But thank you for telling me because at least I know what I may be walking into.”
“Does she know about me Tommy?”
He knew what she meant, and that kind of cut like a knife inside when he heard it.
“I don’t think so.”
“I know that you don’t want to talk about that but I mean god; it wasn’t like that shit wasn’t in some of the stupid tabloids and shit. I mean hell, none of us could go anywhere without a reporter or cameras flashing at times we didn’t think they were there. I know there were some pics and accusations about me and him… and Vince at one time too.” CeeJae got quiet..
“What’s wrong babe?” He grabbed her hand as he parked her car and shut off the key.
“What I just said; it doesn’t sound good and thinking about it, doesn’t make me look good or feel good about this. Its like I am the Motley groupie slut who made her way through the guys. Maybe this is a bad idea.”
“What? No babe, you are ok. You are not a slut; you are my baby and the love of my life. I don’t care what other people think about you, or me or us for that matter. All I know is I want to be with you and only you and we will work all of this out and be together like we should be.’ He kissed her hand and caressed her cheek. “You’re my soul mate babe. We are meant to be together. What we went through is the test we passed and here we are.”
His words filled her heart, his eyes melted her cold walls around her and his touch filled her with reassurance.
“For some strange reason Tommy, I think you’re right.”….